The day that i parted goodbye...

This gona be a sad or happy post i really duno wat i know now is i decided le i had move my chess le left a 9yrs buddy in jus a blink of an eye oh wait maybe not 1 but 4.. reason he treated me like shitx simple chances given alot le but not now this time round.. too much le this blow he gave me was a huge one i cant take it down to forgive him really if i could i would have done it le.. i am always naiseeee to himmm help him advice him end up what i got nothing but got blame that the girl he like didnt be together with him.. so means all along u saying i trying to kill u make u bang the wall hard isit... hao ren bu hao zhuo huai ren hui bi ciao hao zhuo! so to cut it short he call ren ren to thinks that he can help throught ren ren to help him save this friendhip btw me and him.. till i got to thx jr he did his part le so sorry till i will go on with my decision and leave u. best wishes has been send over le nothing much left to be done... so anything from now on got to do with him that links my name in it wont affect me a single bit really.. so pls jus get the fcuk off from my life ba. i beileve after this incident he will learn alot throughtout his journey that is going to be a long one ahead...so anything from now on got to do with them is not my problem! i angel u all take it for granted now i turn devil le dont blame me really but blame urself... actions jealousy insecure inmature causes this things to be ended like this.. bu shi wo yao de ke shi wo mei you quan zhe le :(


So now come to talk abt my colleague name desiree LOL si ren ren ask me go ask her out for dinner for a sincere apology.. and i did it :( but i new it her answer was like its okay la really u buy me breakfast the most can le no need dinner really then i was like haizz sad kind of disapointed cos i new she will say that but nvm her friend helping me to ask her out with me for lunch or a dinner at least! hope everything goes well.. all along ever since the first day of working in starhub i kind of got a smth i like in her.. and slowly as days goes by damn crazy abt her zzzzzz i know abit kua zhang but still ya.. so always she talks i will try to catch her words not to miss out any.. and seeing her appear infront of me every morning at office i will feel kind of happy le lmao abit siao i know but ya la wat to do..siao over her name keep appearing in my brain echo de siol desireeeeeeeeee desireeeeeeeeeeeee desireeeeeeeeeee desireeeeeeeeeeeeee pcb thx to who mr ren ren !! he spam me is use her name desireeeeeeeeeeeeeee to me :( baddd!! make me so paiseh called sala name when eating lunch knn *facepalm* TTM! desireee even laughing.. super super paiseh max! can! her frien say not easy to chase her and i totally agree haha oh well zhou yi bu suan yi bu weather i get hold of her is another thing le hah!

k gona end here le i bth liao 1 step more to drop into black hole lastly fk u all man for giving me so many lj's

Its easy to say..

Finally free to blog hmm somethings running in my mind! its easy to say but weather able to do it or not it's another thing.. hopefully i am able to slowly get rid of it :< i know is not easy but i will try my best to not to disapoint my love ones espically my mum.. she is super jelly max.. abit only will break down like mad. i will always give in to her no matter i know is her fault i know sometimes i rage her blame her but still she is my one and only mum haizzzz!! 21 le i know what is right what is wrong i am lost sometimes still lucky i have jr to always help me up tell me teach me guide me very happy to have him as a bro! really treat him like my own blood bro no doubts! so recently he show me the pix of his backk after he go for the acupuncture cos he work then accidenally sprint his back! the momment i saw the pix i was omg my heart sank like i feel sad cos arr is so pain la and also this shows that he meant smth alot to me thats why i will react like this!! hopefully he will recover soon asap :)

so yea now holidays was working in starhub so i met this colleague girl name desiree she was so helpfull and friendly towards me but i was stupid i did something wrong FML i go tweet that she and her friend was b1tching other girls on my twitter.. den on the 3rd day of work she added me twitter and i totally forget that i got tweet about them.. so on the 4th day of work she approach me and say she is a very straight foward person and she straight ask me so i saw ur tweet that u were saying we are XMM and we were b1tching about another girl? i was like OMG WTF GGGGGGGGGG to meeeeeeeee so i tried to explain that i was really saying tat u are XMM is jus that i am older so to me i see u as a mei mei but not saying tat u are XMM and i apologise to her.. so she nxt momment reply me dont need explain and say sorry she will feel awakard! and lets drop the matter! i was like... and i can feel that she was kind of unhappy tat i tweeted that but i am really sorry i keep saying sorry to her and she was like its okay nvm.. but in my heart i feel is totally not okay lor zzzzz den from that momment onwards i know she will treat me differently le like build up her wall against me to protect herself.. arrw FML man she is short short kind of cute and got the vein look! but i kind of like her la but now i can dream of even like her cos i am out of her friend list i guess.. so is not surprise to see her deleting me from fb and unfollow me on twitter after my work ends on this month septemeber.. i jus wan to really let her know that i dont mean it really but i jus duno how to start or am i even given a chance to say it to her i duno man... guess i jus lost a friend for nothing or maybe not who knows.. maybe she will close a eye and forgive me but i dont think so ba. but still is really a small thing but in her eyes i bet is a freaking huge shit.. oh well i can suck thumb and jus move on ba..

so i told kkj abt this matter she says that i am a normal guy meaning i wont go notice all this thing... but i really never had a thought that this will happen ma! she go see my old tweets and happen to let her see tio and end up i am fcuked! zzzz so baddddddddd la i knowwww...so i been recently keep thinking dammit why so suay de let her see tio the tweet.. suay max.. but this girl desiree is really naise la all i can say and sociable..

Nvm la this world so many womans no scared cant find my true love..and i know how to piroity my friens who is first cos from wat i see it for myself i know who are really there for me and who are not.. so even u are 9yrs good buddy with this friend and another friend is jus 1yrs+ going 2yrs eventually the 2ys friend will be there for u first.. so ya like this lor.. this is life! ok shall end here! :)