2012!!

ok now talking abt the good sight i am happy to receive the first call from crazy girl aka alice she is so sweet omg call me and say happy new year to me at 12am sharp omg i was shock to receive her call and the bf beside her lol so badd!why i say so bad is because she fking shout on the phone HAPPY NEW YEAR DICKSON LU i am like ok wtfux u mad girl first time seeing her shout so happily like wow! but she later text me secretly she purposely wan make him angry or smth ok real so sometimes girl are abit crazy la huh random max! but its okay la they gt pms ma we guys dont have so u dont see we being random lol we are jus purely fine! but guys 1 things is when they are jealous abt smth they is really jealous no joking man! and when u see guy heartbroken and really is sad they is truely love this girl till they broke down like mad? cos we normally guys are strong but when we are weak we dont show and vent it out we jus keep it to ourself and find smth to overcome it like go drink to pour our sorrows.. and get drunk next day hangover and life continues for us tats how normally guys do. looking foward to reopen sch and kick my @ss to study hard and less playing lol already left ard 2months to big exam and 1month to graduation.     

RAGE MAX!

ok i gona start abt my ranked games ok so woke up before heading to aunty house lost 3 ranked games nvm den saw kkj sis the video gone duno which idiot bastard b1tch bm her till she i think put the private video and can feel she kind of sad jus duno why la huh some people jealous la too cute adorable tats why bth till bm or dont like her etc but no matter wat i jus always giving her support cheer her up yea tats wat i always do to ppl when they are down. so after that get bathe change go aunty house str8 so after celeberating at aunty house hit home at 1+ play ranked till 6.30! ok real whole night i meet AXG.joe AXG.aidenz 6 games in a row i lose all the way only last 3rd game i won them once using kass to carry team and i fking lose all the 5 games either i get troll or i get dcer i lose is lose so fast till 20mins also have WTF ok nvm wor tat time i 1585 elo cb i meet AXG.dan AXG.kwang my 2 nights 16 games lost thx to them too 8/10 games i meet them LOSE nvm kana BM badly FK! dulan max la arrrrrrrr!!!!!!! why i win need try so hard but when i lose is really jus get thrash so badly wtf my skills not good enuff? or the fking match making giv me scrubs i can see ppl telling me in ranked KASS not op la no need banned WTF captain 1.6k elo tell me tat den oppenent pick kass owned us like fk! is really get thrash badly till OMFG haizzzz so sometimes i jus put too much feel into ranked games i really is put my effort in wan to win in the end get troll or dcer or cb idiots troll elo to them to make me lose haiz FML la dulan tis how mad i am right now haiz SUA la going smoke and sleep! now already 6.40am.. ccb again record 1 day lose 8 ranked games my 3rd time already haiz haiz haiz arrrrr !#&!&$!^!^#$!$^$!*#^!#^!* going sot ok must maintain liao really is sot liao me come on jus a game i must slap myself man wake up!!!  

2012 arriving!

ok gona talk abt my ranked games lol climb so hard after 2 weeks of fight? finally i am back to 1530! but i aiming 1.6k so guess nxt few days i may drop back? lol i duno haha gona try hard huh! so yea 2011 is ending in 15hours time and the sad part is i am ending 2011 SINGLE! woohoo but also cannot say sad part la huh gt good gt bad which i duno how explain again.. but nvm gona look foward for my new goals work hard get into poly, my driving license going continue cos i take halfway stop -.-, maybe find a gf i duno or maybe not haha..

So yea talking abt tis yr i should say is bad la huh things go wrong at the wrong timing things tat i wanted always i dont get it and those things tat is unexpected will come running to me.. but nvm its ok at least i nvr regret getting to know mr jr wang troll guy lolololo super bm huh :D but no la he is steady good bro lai de respect! teach me alot learn alot from him too bad things good things dirty things all also have la haha lol! kkj sis most naughty and dirty yaoii siao also lololo!, Dinghao! and alot ppl la huh! cliff enzo dabby roy etc all awesome guys man :)

kkj sis show me a video of herself lolololo i am the first 1 to see feel so proud lolo BYL huh :D but nvm i like it lmao super funny cute adorable la bth and she fking shy lololo and the topic is abt! *** u can nvr imgaine de LOL real man! so seen only the first half cos she say cannot need to wait till she upload it so bad!! la 

looking foward to the video gona laugh hard man! but at the same time sappork her ttm!! ^_^

Jus wishing my 2012 everything will be fine good things goes smoothly the way i want and no regrets no looking back to 2011 when the clocks strike 12am FCUK! looking foward to a new brand year everything new weeeeeeeee..

you shi wo zhen de hen bu se de ba ni wang ji diao ke shi wo yi jing zhuo dao le :<

Angels from nightmare

Wat a day to start today woke up at 3+pm tis few days have been sleeping at as early as 7am in the morning fking real due to ranked games too much haha so ya. so woke up today 3+pm ranked 2 games and suppose to meet 1 of my frien for dinner but end up jus a call from alice i cancel my dinner meeting with frien and met her due to the fcuking bf aeroplane her.. real end up i be good person lor come down pei her eat walk around town shopping for her xmas gift for her mum so ya. so shopping done send her home as she was abt to enter lift she say she dont feel like going home so early cos was only 10pm so k nvm find a place sat down smoke tgt and chit chated etc saying her bf tis la tat la no good den why still hold on to the r/s man i ask her tat not i being a bad person asking her to break but no point wat complains over and over again. so she jus keep quiet for a momment and for no reason she break down like hmm did i say smth wrong o.o so as usual trying my best calm her down and lending her my shoulder.. haiz since so xin ku why in the first place patch.. super wtfux man and i also duno why i am like so worried for her the momment she call me i jus change bathe and meet her maybe my feelings for her when deeper i duno la but i jus feel she is not the 1 i looking for but yet arr jus duno how to describe my feeling.. fk! so before she went home i tried to make her smile and yes i did it so she smiled tats good la i also smile i jus hate girls cry la huh!

Sometimes i feel my feelings for her is it true or not i jus duno man when she is single i jus basically make her wait now she is in a r/s cos sometimes she talk to me halfway she tell me i go call my baby liao den my mind think orhx ok bye so call ended. is like my heart is jealous but i jus cant think of it WHY! am i jealous. see tis is wat i mean by i am confuse yet jus cant think of a reason why am i jealous due to she told me she going call her baby den i jealous? wtf let ppl hear sure laugh la haiz. suan le la come to think of it after a good sleep i forget all those unhappy things in my mind cos i jus wan to look foward to a better day. now i am always trying hard to see things towards a brighter side and positive rather den negative always..

i wish i known the truth behind the lies

Bonding!

Hi everybody i am back blogging hehehe how did u guys spent ur christmas huh! i spent it with my lovely bros and sisters while else on christmas eve spent it with family relatives big time gather tgt to share the love with each other and praise the lord for the food and everything :) had fun tgt on the christmas day it self even thought stupid dabby too real nearly spoilt my mood in morning put me big big aeroplane like a boss end up i like a idiot solo go church myself for christmas service lol nvm den k after church call bro JR never pick up best la so cfm sleeping like dog lolololo so nxt call to was mr DingHao! woo answer my call in a shag tone lol jus wake up so i say lets meet now go breakfast so he complain to me yy nvr reply my text msg whatsapp call nvr pick up LOL i told him aiya u also not duno yy pattern is wat de outside sure fk care the phone lol jus dump into the bag silent mode zai la i like that! very lady Boss! cant imagine if she 1 day is a company of a boss den nvr pick of phone de once knock off from work sure gg lol :D so bm haha but i saying quite true rite :D so dh agree with me ya hor so i told dh go bathe i going call tat kkj sis yy along with us for breakfast! so yea 1 called to her nvr pick up :< but 5secs later she called back lmao she jus wake up opps lucky she nvr rage at me i so hao xin ask her join us for breakfast she na li se de to rage me hor lolololo abit BYL but nvm learn from her de :) so met up with dh le 2nd call to bro jr again NVR pick up zai la tis time i kup fast cos i see aiya sure sleeping like a pig. so yea meet up le she late for 1 hour tmd bian tai! bth nearly smack her man lol so after lunch go dh house for movie captain america! watch half way i ko on dh bed too tired la cos last night slept 1 hour only so shag! but ya so sleep on his bed they say i snore WTFUX real means i too tired la duh! like sleeping beauty tis kkj sis say haha so bad! duno wheather they got disturb me or not when i sleeping lol.

so yea after tat train down to bedok to enzo house cos bro jr car cant sit 4 ppl behind wait kana caught gg so  we took a train down me dh kkj sis shag 1hour + journey haha but at night had a good dinner at some thai restaurant awesome la the food love max max plus chated awhile to chill. and later night at enzo house play blackjack mr dh lose like mad when kkj sis came in to join us lol spoilt his card haha and give us all luck lady luck huh! and enzo my lucky boi! keep giv me good card hehee. so had fun man tgt with my bros and sis yea! happy max tis is wad friends are for tgt bonding rocks seeing them smile i feel happy too ^_^

A good morning text does not only mean "Good morning". It has a silent, loving message that says..."I think of you when I wake up.   

What a day to end with...

ok last night when to class bbq at ecp had a nice night enjoy myself so yea brought crazy girl along as she wanted to tag along for wat reason i duno why and she bluff the bf she go sleep so last min till i need ask my frien use his car to go pick her up which is ard 11+ so fren agree sibei steady lol no complains from him also kind of shock and he is a malay steady man! so when she arrive at the pit classmates so BM! wa bring gf sia dickson all the crap all come liao :< so bad till omg nearly regret bring her come but still overall ok. BBQ for her the food and she sat 1 side like a princess waiting for me to serve her.. while my malay friens entertain her LOL ask her alot crap questions how old are u? etc 1 frien more real ur eyes looks beautiful tmd i laugh until peng while bbq make her so paiseh man lol. so after eating lepak tgt with them play blackjack and i be banker cos i am the only chinese guy there tats was their reason tat they gave me so ok lor lmao so play till 3+ near 4 we stop and i won only ard $12 haha cos the bet was per game $0.50 only. After that crazy girl giv me i duno wat kind of face la lol like sian sian type so i ask her u wan go home? she say no ok so i went to find 1 spot sit down tgt enjoy the waters sound and the nice breeze and chated also. so she ask me this did u ever like me before or should i say did u ever love me before am i like huh in my mind wtfux so random ask this kind of qns. so i reply her ya have ar why den she said ohh ok and gave me a a sad face cos she now gt bf and at the same point say all this to me like trying to hurt me but thats not wad she mean so she rest her head on my shoulder and say i am sorry.. so i was like thinking wat should i do now i kind of *Stun* so after 5mins of silence i think la lol cos she after say sorry i keep quiet awhile thinking wad to say.. so i said smth like its ok i understand what u trying to say dont worry but actually i cant read what she trying to bring out from her heart but i can feel she is kind of sad..complicated la! arrrr gt bf and yet say all this to me and bluff the bf she go sleep but yet she was out with me haiz disapointed with her actions...

Ard 6+ send her home and i reach back my place at ard 9+ so bathe wack 3 ranked games not bad all win and when to sleep till 7pm woke up and continue with my ranked games sadly i lost 8 ranked games and won 2 only and not only tat i quarrel with my mum till so badly my vuglar all fly out from my mouth thats how bad it went cos i lost my earpiece at the bbq guess i drop it or smth i duno nvm wor she go like purposely shoot me serve u rite for losing ur earpiece and dinner she nvr even cook ask me buy myself gt so piss off i 1 shot scream at her + somemore on losing streak in ranked game and  i gt bm badly by the AXG.kwang and AXG.Dan tis 2 real i mistake 1 time only fcuk me sia wat noob la quit ranked la dog etc wa steady so hot la me jus gt the urge to freaking smack their fking face if i were to see them in real. and i met them 3 times in 1 night all games bm me without fail i lose nvm still let them say like till i damn noob la etc keyboard warrior sia... bloody bunch of xdd i guess.. wat a day to end with in 1 night lost 8 ranked games quarrel with mum haiz feeling now damn fcuked up.. going end here and sleep..

Wo hui lai le!

i am back blogging hmm what to write i wonthering tis few day have been at home only go out buy lunch jiu all the way at home use com sleep eat smoke haha i kind of change abit so u beileve everyone do's too rite last time use to msg crazy girl before sleep and after woke up first thing my mind Text her! now lei wake up dont feel like touching my phone jus use com relax if tired go back sleep and will check my phone once in awhile recently gt scolded by dad.. cos he gave me a call at 12+ i gave him a call back at 7+ pm lol cos urgent la need help do some paper work for his property. my phone always now on silent last time normally i put loud maybe due to last time keep text her sometimes can be whole day msging real.. but now maybe can say bo chup le gt msg me i reply no msg i also chill relax do my stuff see u happy i guess i am contented le ba. so today she wrote on my wall lol nvr text her le huh. actually is i gt saw her msg de jus tat always reply same also duno wat to say le haiz..but hope now her bf treat her good la ups and down recently..if lets say gone den maybe come back to me i will still not make a fast decision still as usual when the time is ripe i will go for it.

single also not tat really bad la huh from my point of view i can do wadever i want happy is all i wanted for myself and as long as my beloved bro and sis friens all happy smile i also happy :) christmas near the corner le presents preapre also le so thinking how to celeberate it hmm.. mr dinghao and kkj sis tell me they going giv me their virgin celeberation for xmas i am like huh all along they dont celeberate christmas de shock dao! cos for me every year i celeberate is like as usual aunty house open party eat all good food den exchange presents later night go out with friens. but tis year i going try smth different kkj sis keep say plan plan i also cant think of smth :( she say picnic wa stun real lei! i feel like jus all gather up happy den u know orchard always gt ppl spraying each other those spray cans get some of those and celeberate it tgt simple rite lol and nice dinner etc. orchard lightings also nice ma can take picssss tgt! maybe can ask tis 2 roy and dabby to come along i duno. cos roy invited me to his house for christmas celeberation we stay quite near each other maybe 20mins reach his house haha. shall go ask tis mr kkj jr bro for ideas! cos he is good at all this! ciao le now is 4.50am.. and also jus finish a rank game won! woo with roy dual stress team got hayleyy tofuboi imprint aka equviocal me and roy vs  cwcwcw IntheZell and another 3 cant rembr stress la high elo game -.- but lucky win hahah happy!

being broken hearted is kind of like having broken ribs, - from the outside it looks like everything is fine, but every breath you take hurts.

First time doing online shopping!

Met up with roy dabby and i met a new friend again aerospacegod! wow awesome guy very steady his a mix race chinese malay and omg he intro me a website online for shopping lol and i bought a fred perry shoe white!  and its on 40% discount so yea cool can consider cheap la free shipping too but need wait like 14days i think... quite happy haha hope i can wear the shoe man i choose the smallest size US 8 haha my leg is small ba. so now waiting for the item to arrive! and 1 more item i order online for someone special for xmas gift need to wait for it to arrive on the 27th :( tml going to make the payment  for the item to be confirm.. bought alot things tis 2 days also spent alot going broke soon la ! :( but most importantly i am happy la! today also walk pass cineleasure saw a handphone casing hello kitty de so i jus bought it for crazy girl xmas hope she like it.. and this dabby funny lol she say so loud to the bf see ppl so got the heart to buy for the girl even thought she is not her bf den me lei i ur gf no xmas gift receive from u lol GG... i was at there thinking lol wtfux plus tis 2 friends i jus know drama la they all 2 times i go out with them quarrel infront of me wa fking real la jia lat today most epic de in mrt going back they quarrel den roy so piss off nxt stop he get down left me and the gf my next impression stun holy fk real like tat walk off like a boss den ppl beside looking at me -.- so texted him meet us at serangoon mrt so chated with dabby la this and that u should not do always she giv xiao jie piqi lol gg den when we eating also tgt they can really quarrel also wtfux man! plus is those roy really can throw face those kind she jus shoot him on the spot giv him no face to run -.- if i were roy hmm i think long ago my face black nxt momment u see i stand up and walk away really is those until shoot until wa his face duno put where like machamp she took over his man pride. like she say smth like ya lor always only know how to play his ps3 never care for me den go out only know how to communciate with frens den throw me 1 side as if she not around and what thing at home like normally couples sleep at the same time they is ok 1 sleep 1 awake so once another is awake the other 1 go sleep den nvr talk much unless they both playing game and at the same time both awake tat when they talk and alot la i cant rembr but i jus know its not right to say those things infront of his friends it like wad u trying to tell us u wan him xia sway infront of us o.o. i hear liao WTFUX wad r/s is this lol but i nvr say out jus act normal and reply oh like tat ar etc. i like macham their big kor kor going out with 2 kids age 17 haha. suppose to go church with them tml cos i ask them to join me cos they are christian too but guess i think i can go alone le...

Long day

When out with my bunch of ex teammates in lol first thing kana kan :< say i nvr contact them la nvr play with them lol so yea also bunch of funny ppl gt ahxiang jolice ahpiao xiongmao and a few more lol so my frien xiongmao jus gt back to sg 2 days ago from Austraila so met up with them today when out eat movie etc quite a jiao guy indeed he is lol sibei disturb ppl de he driving den pass by little india row down window shout " Ah Neh never hold hand ar" we laugh until tears nearly come out lol  and he is 26! lol. a joker guy also man nt bad tats how i know kkj sis de is thru this guy name alfred aka xiongmao big and tall damnit!

Shock tio while watching movie halfway crazy girl called me me after 2 days didnt receive her msg.. but i didnt pick up so gave a fast text ask her anything urgent she reply dont dare text u so i called u to ask how am i lol stun man so reply her i in the movie tml i wake up den text her. but happy to see her so care for me make my day happy :D but at the same time wa my words gt so terror or not.. still now she still scared wtfux maybe she young la huh must understand.. and 1 bad news from her she quited the job le..reason she dont feel like working le and now she also attach maybe wan to pei bf more i duno jus random guess oh well hah. Jus asking myself why she is attach yet so caring for me hmm... but i beileve if this girl is urs she will be no need try so hard de i also wan serious de not some play play de.. k la gona end here is now 6am le.. 

I deserve it

Haizzzz see now i never even receive a text from her today guess my words really hurt her too much and its proven le her fb post jus hit the jackpot

And i ask my bro jr he also say its really hurting :( zhen de la why always shitx things happen to me cos i know why le i giv ppl shitx things too in return i get back the same i nvr think if i were to be in her shoe how will i feel ppl care for u u in return so gl and say hurting things real bad la me so badddd till can never beileve i really say those words to her and i even go read back the msg i send to her still gt bye behind -.- tis time real shitx bad until can go bang wall and die liao me.. given her pattern i think she will cry like a baby good la her bf also can do his job..till now i still can write all this so gl and irrtating huh still can say all this when i am now in the wrong bth myself time to wake up liao me getting from good>bad>worst.. tis is so not me man gotta maintain liao..

sometimes i jus duno wat am i doing kind of think of it really stupid actions done by me   

Ai zhen de you Ne mo nan?

Oh well basically playing games and having chats with bros kkj sis friens all make me happy cant really beileve we saw this guy Dim Sum in game we troll him at the score chat after the game ended come to more real me and kkj sis even added him in fb LOL cfm he kana terror la rofl sibei good boi man him u know why cos he from boys sch and tis kkj sis say something she compare her sis and the dimsum lol one heaven one hell and both same age also 1 from boys sch and he comment after seeing the girlaxy photos all GIRLS are pretty LOL maybe his sch no girls tats why so yea LOL lmao! me and kkj sis were laughing abt it bth la laugh till my jaw wan drop! he also was looking for team so i ask him go send in a resume,photo and his ign to them and he beileve me tmd tis 1 real laugh until my mouth nearly cannot close! too funny le la lol. so ya as i was saying kkj sis compare her sis and the dimsum so u see the difference now? 1 from boys sch  another 1 from mix sch so it goes like this 1 is very good boi like mama or papa boi very listen to parent de another 1 is oh my god u will nvr beileve it LOL R21 la p0rn la etc all sibei pro hear liao i also stun at such young age know all this too real last time i also duno all this man at a age of 14 or 15... omg i typing all this like sibei bad to kkj sis the mei mei LOL hope she see tis le dont fcuk me :x

Now time for some shitx man so she text me ask me how"s my day as usual cos i was online whole day and its her off day too she didnt went out so ya she was online too..duno why i seems frustated and unhappy when replying her text she can say all those like u eat wrong medicine ar talk to me like the words are like not happy those type duh of cos i am not happy la my reply goes like this ya lor i eat wrong medicine everyday how dont talk to me den bye so obvious my words all so hurting scaratic i am like that de if i wan to forget 1 person or should i say move on etc my words to u is harsh de for some reason i duno why but ya i am like this but after awhile i am back to normal la tat is to girls only! and also if the girl hurt me way too much till u can nvr imgaine i sure mia delete contact block her everything make sure she can nvr find me i did this bfr to 1 of my ex so yea tat 1 too real to beileve but still i need face it like a boss and MOVE on! haiz life is like this la gt up means gt down de nvr once u see the path is swee swee de :(

Am i really tat bad or gl to her now? pls tell me is no or she deserve it i duno man haiz hate doing all this to her cos i feel bad but at the same time when they hurt me will they feel bad like how i do now? heart too soft le ba maybe its time for me to change abit to make myself strong and not so easily xin luan to girls... Gona go service again this weekend man pray to god seek for forgivness if i ever did something bad to ppl :( god will always ans my prayers and clear away my sins i did. sometimes being too xin luan end up i ownself suffer FML la how i wish i am strong. now i feel bad after replying her in such a gl bad manner ppl hao xin ask me how i am end up i gave her some shitx reply... gg me!    

Ni Ai Wo?

Last night slept at 5+ due to duno to be happy or sad so i when downstairs and sit at 1 corner smoke and tears flowing down my cheeks and at the same time smiling and ask myself why this why that always when i am down first thing in my mind always negative never once i look towards the positive side haiz so after thinking too hard i gt tired and when back up and change to preapare to sleep jus as bfr i go to bed i whatsapps sis why girls are so hard to understand or i fail too much.. so woke up at 1+ near to 2 wash up and see my hp saw sis reply so she tell me this and that la read liao hmm true i met wrong girl ba life being fair by being unfair to everyone and etc. and whatsapp my good bro so he told me this and that too actually i like her jus scared she not serious etc end up i get hurt wat for rite if i were to go in a r/s and long later end up break le i hurt myself again..

One of my sis she is age 22 or 23  msg me hey bro why ur bdae falls on monday why not on on fri or sat cos she promise me to bring me to attica to chiong on my bdae cos that club is 21 and above den can go in and i will be 21 le :( old liao la fcuk!  lol i was thinking wtfux now only 12dec still early la LOL my bdae falls on 30january still long way to go lmao she kan chiong spider la so cute la she and she super wuxim man still can rembr what she promise me cos my 20 bdae she gt celeberate for me. Hmm anyone wan help me plan wat to do on my bdae! *Hint Hint* :)) haha. jus wan all my good bros and sis gather tgt sit down eat drink and celeberate i am more den happy enuff le but of cos not make me drunk la i still rembr my 20th bdae i gt drunk so badly cb i still gt the pictures lol super unglam tmd! 1 pic show i lieing on the ROAD! damn real see liao cfm wtfux man!

So use com the whole day didnt text her to my surprise she msg me Ni Bu Li Wo le? next think in my mind was tmd u now in a r/s still dare come tell me Ni Bu Li Wo le? real huh and i wanted to send her a nice long scolding msg but end up i didnt why cos heart too xin luan la xia bu liao shou end up i tell her if u wan text me make sure let ur bf know dont come later gt some shitx problems in btw me and ur bf first 1 i sure slap is u and i will u know why jus to wake up ur fking idea. so texted her la what she want since u gt bf why still bother abt my life good or not obviously u trying to know wheather i am sad or wat duh but i pretend i am fine jus dont wan let her know abt it. so end up she ask me tc of myself la blah blah anything she will text me so i say ok. so later ard 1+ saw her posting on FB and it goes like this Dont say u love me unless u mean it because i might do something crazy like beileve it. i dun know which of ur words i can beileve. i guess she is writing to let her ex bf see cos ytd her status was in a r/s with tat guy. 

So was thinking if since she could write like this and why in the first place go back to him for real huh or she jus was testing see he love her or not.. den like tat if i were to be in a r/s her she also testing la weather i love her bo if no den break with me? she is getting more terror man even next few days or wadever she become single i still not going to make my move still gona wait or maybe i wont.. tats why i say girls are complicated u will nvr know what the fuk they are thinking till 1 day u know u be shock.

Best is at least i still have my kkj sis and good bro i know they are my real frens always there be it anyone is sad we will cheer each other up and support one another. Never regret knowing them ^_^  

Happy or Sad?

i am back blogging hi everyone i shall start of with a happy one first ytd when to work for a event at sentosa which is Zouk Out woo awesome manager allow us to smoke and work at the same time cant beileve i finish 1 whole pack of cigg after 14hours of work real heavy now but i can control when i at home duno why when i stay at home i smoke lesser rather den when outside.. Saw alot of real babes cos i was working at the VIP area and arr my eyes are nearly blinded way too hot and they are friendly too working and chit chating with them and tgt with the manager. so came back at morning 10+ bathe and KO on the bed till 7 plus. 

Recently tis silly girl told me her ex visited her at the working place so i was like oh ok so but didnt know they are in a r/s now damn real i duno wat to say or reply her  now kind of confused what is her motive or all along she was jus waiting to see whats my reaction but i am kind of shock to hear it now. Why ALWAYS GIRLS WAN TO DO THIS TO GUYS toture us mind fucking playing ard with our mind i really dont see her love me tats the fking reason why i wan delay it and now i guess its proven? so now i guess she jus wan to get into a r/s to show her friend she gt bf? or wad i duno la i don beileve the ex meet u like last 2 days in btw tis 2 days u all can patch back i fucking wont beileve it but if its yes i will face it guess i jus give my blessings ba.

Wo zhen de bu zhi dao kai quai le hai shi shang xin wo hen fannnnnnnnnn arrrr zhen de jus feel like now cry out loud to vent all my emotions out fk everything man cbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb!!!!

Always de girls hurt me so hard :( guess i jus cry and laugh at the same time ba.

Thx for loving me        

Yi Dian Dou Bu Jian Dan

Woke up today first thing saw my phone gt a msg after reading *Stun* for awhile duno wad to reply the msg cos is too -.- was thinking what if i were to rush into tis r/s will it be a happy one or will it buang badly behind. Always u off day u wan come find smth for me to crack my head wtfux maybe u are young la duno how to think jus wan faster get into a r/s why for fun or for show only to show ur friens u are attached i duno ba jus a random guess from me. or age gap 5 years my thinking and ur thinking different tats why this the difference? If since u wan it like this den i guess i will giv u a memorable day and take a step back let u go will be better for us huh. i dont contact u i mia. that will be the last decision i will make if i really have no choice and thats the most hate thing to do :( at the same time i lost u and u are suffering in pain.

Before i play lol i used to play blackshot competitve the reason i quited blackshot is because due to a girl too u know why cos i like this girl from another team so ya we got tgt and at the same time my own team this guy like her too so nvm wor. but i didnt know that this girl could did such a bad thing behind me and my team one of them is invovle in it i dont wish to say out but is too real to accpect it but i still need to so after knowing i quited the game quited my team break off with her and mia. i lost not only my those good gaming friens and alot thing u know! i will never forget tat momment man i broke down like as if the world is ending cry like a idiot. From that momment onwards i lost trust in love tats the reason why now i wan move 1 step at a time dont wan rush into r/s haizz.. will never understand how i feel de..

 

Now at least i met really some good buddies u know who u are :) those unhappy momments i shall forget it  ba dont even turn back once decision made.

Jiang Zhen de!

I am back writing on my blog hmm what should i start with hmm.. life been great not bad for this few days kind of happy with the people around me and i jus trim my hair ytd and upload 2 pic 1 with jus pure and the other is use a app to have a nicer background and shock that so many bastard classmates disturb only comment what ghey la dlck face dlck head etc oh my gosh bth so baddd la they all i jus wan a new dp only ma :( all say too white look like gay la or flower boy -.- gg i am not gay ok for nuts i remeber my dad say if i become gay he will cut of my tat 1 no joke lol cos he saw tat pic i upload LOL but tat is only i wan make nice abit ma nothing wrong de but hell no i wont become gay dont worry. only 1 person say my photos looks awesome shall not tell u all who hehe go guess smart ppl will get the ans out de. 

And recently tis frien of my roy i jus know him the gf thinks i wan snatch his bf away from her damn real simi lj stun sensitive la she first time hearing from a girl a guy wan snatch him away normally is girl ma.. den she kind of attitude me for the pass few days post on my fcuk off LOL damn real haha but now she cool down liao la she even apologise lol bth.

Met Jr today for lunch with my classmates he so Da Fan drinks on him my frien later tell me they paiseh lol haha i jus tell them my tis bro steady de so nxt time u all buy him back drink la haha so easy.. nvr regret to know him best liao hah even thought we sometimes quarrel due to misunderstanding or wadever i duno lol but till we are so good buddy :D Forget and forget :) backstabbers is unforgiven in my dictionary! nvr do tis to a good buddy or bro cos u sure regret and is so stupid and retarded action man 1 has gone down due to think he too good bo bian ego high ma now ppl ask me where he go i reply huh do i know him? i am like that de once u did smth very most unforgiven thing tats it i tell u FCUK OFF without hesitation. cos i see no point in becoming a frien le is like u are a devil trying to be frien with me! or have interior motives behind or wadever i duno.. terror sia. Jr told me smth haha i also long ago thinking isit real? we shall see la hor :) if guess also i dont think we will be out of range is jus maybe we are near to the ans lol!

Recently ok everything beens cool no quarrels jus normal chat with her telling me hw's her work all and ask me for reward if she can endure working till her holiday end so bad rite so fast wan ask for reward. so i jus say ok la maybe bring her go out lor. cos she is those type like princess de so seeing her to work is miracle and even the boss also dont beileve she can really work lol but overall she can la and even can work OT now so hardworking.  Doesn't mean need to be together den can chit chat or should i say text each other asking how u are doing all. now jus friends also can de ma is like caring for each other is jus that when as times goes if both party gt feel den be together lor if not jus remain as friends lor.

ok gona end here will update more soon stay tune!      

As Day Goes By..

Mistakes and mistakes repeating over and over again u not bored of it i am man and saying sorry again it makes no different cos u will till repeat it. Doesnt mean i can forgive means i will forget cos it will still remain in my brain.. Told me to quit smoking ownself also cannot maintain in the end now smoke back power max la! when i starting get to know you after few weeks later i kind of like you also duno why got the feel sudden come de i guess.. but now seems to be hmm.. people tell me this kind of gal mai waste time but i choose not to but now it seems true? i duno.. haiz i try my best give in ba overall u are still a nice gal 

Advance bdae celeberation for my bro

Lovely Aunt called us up told us to lets have a good dinner at vivo city so get changed and hit there at 7.30 we had dine at Modesto's first time going there and its like a italian style the food were awesome and the pizza spaghetti is delicious max!! and also we had half litre of red wine to go with it sexy max! so after dine send my cousin home and me sis aunt went to catch movie apple of my eye my 2nd time watching lol as usual laugh like mad :D

Also its was my uncle maid bdae today so my aunt brought her along oh well shock to see my aunt bring the maid along as i see others maid also dont have so good life come eat good food haha.. My aunt is the best man i love her ttm even thought she is divorced she is single now still living happily gt a high post in her current job and rich nothing seems to affect her must learn from her liao everyday live life happily. Aunt pass me the n0. tag and other small little pins and all ask me go run the 42km marathon oh well i shall go for it which is 5am later long time no run liao hope i dont faint later:x shall walk and run and enjoy it! my classmate some are going to run too woo!

不 快 了！！

Weiiiiiiii semmmmooooooooooo huiiiii zheeeeeeee yanggggggggg nan dao zhen de si wo de cuo? ni yi dian dou bu liao jue wo zi hui gey wo tian ma fan. hai si wo zhen de si yi ge hen bu ti liang de nan ren. xiao xiao de shi hui zhao chen dao na me da zhen de gao bu qing chu ni zhai xiang semo lanjiao. Ta Ma De wo zhen de hen shen qi si wang bu kai xin quai yao feng le ke shi wo ke yi maintain de zhi shi.....  

Haizzz..

Suppose to go out with her today cos today is her off day to get her casing and shopping for her new dress but things end up bad thx to her damn real come make a big fuss early in the morning due to last night didnt reply her text and giv her a ring when i reach home cos i am too tired after going out lan with roy a new friend i jus met. i reach home wash up and was too tired i when to sleep str8 after drying my hair cos got sch at 9am later. So woke up omw to sch i called her to my surprise she nvr sleep whole night u know why cos angry dulan with me say i nvr care for her like bo chup her didnt bother reply her text bfr i sleep nvrr ring her to say i tired going sleep now den say what she find her friend chit chat with her till morning i am like in my mind wtfux tis kind of small things u wan make a big fuss rite so i say i text her lazy talk to her on phone. so i text her such small things u wan come rage at me wake up ur idea lei i tired so jus when to sleep after i bathe den i say so now u  wan quarrel bec of such small thing she say i am the one who started this quarrel den everything wan blame me k lor dulan i everything tell her cancel u can go out urself today i am not in the mood to pei u shopping early morning wan spoilt my mood cfm damn real she. so she kind of purposely say wan poke me reply "sua nvm i go out with other guy" caps somemore. den i nvr reply the msg le . go la i also not ur fking bf doesnt mean i everyday talk to u text u means we are tgt and dont forget my ans is still ? u think by saying this will affect me ar u wan come give me ur Da Xiao Jie attitude thats ur fking problem  u wan rage at me make sure gt valid reason i not those unreasonable guy who will go head on to u when its my fault i will step back and apologise.

Disapointed max la :( why all this girls like this de sometimes very sweet some times super unreasonable why why why PMS ar also tat doesnt giv her the right to be like this what. think i can give up liao.. My heart is so sad and angryyy yet disapointed duno wad to say liao. i dont see this time i am in the wrong who started this or is it my fault? haizz arrrr !#%!&*%$!%!@&!#()&!)$(!&@!&#!^!&%#!&@%!^@!@&!)@&!)!!!!! going sot liao fml wad a bad month to start with real baddddd! who willing to giv me a listening ear now i sure rage siao! cannot control liao my vuglar all coming out le! going stop here le..