The day that i parted goodbye...

This gona be a sad or happy post i really duno wat i know now is i decided le i had move my chess le left a 9yrs buddy in jus a blink of an eye oh wait maybe not 1 but 4.. reason he treated me like shitx simple chances given alot le but not now this time round.. too much le this blow he gave me was a huge one i cant take it down to forgive him really if i could i would have done it le.. i am always naiseeee to himmm help him advice him end up what i got nothing but got blame that the girl he like didnt be together with him.. so means all along u saying i trying to kill u make u bang the wall hard isit... hao ren bu hao zhuo huai ren hui bi ciao hao zhuo! so to cut it short he call ren ren to thinks that he can help throught ren ren to help him save this friendhip btw me and him.. till i got to thx jr he did his part le so sorry till i will go on with my decision and leave u. best wishes has been send over le nothing much left to be done... so anything from now on got to do with him that links my name in it wont affect me a single bit really.. so pls jus get the fcuk off from my life ba. i beileve after this incident he will learn alot throughtout his journey that is going to be a long one ahead...so anything from now on got to do with them is not my problem! i angel u all take it for granted now i turn devil le dont blame me really but blame urself... actions jealousy insecure inmature causes this things to be ended like this.. bu shi wo yao de ke shi wo mei you quan zhe le :(


So now come to talk abt my colleague name desiree LOL si ren ren ask me go ask her out for dinner for a sincere apology.. and i did it :( but i new it her answer was like its okay la really u buy me breakfast the most can le no need dinner really then i was like haizz sad kind of disapointed cos i new she will say that but nvm her friend helping me to ask her out with me for lunch or a dinner at least! hope everything goes well.. all along ever since the first day of working in starhub i kind of got a smth i like in her.. and slowly as days goes by damn crazy abt her zzzzzz i know abit kua zhang but still ya.. so always she talks i will try to catch her words not to miss out any.. and seeing her appear infront of me every morning at office i will feel kind of happy le lmao abit siao i know but ya la wat to do..siao over her name keep appearing in my brain echo de siol desireeeeeeeeee desireeeeeeeeeeeee desireeeeeeeeeee desireeeeeeeeeeeeee pcb thx to who mr ren ren !! he spam me is use her name desireeeeeeeeeeeeeee to me :( baddd!! make me so paiseh called sala name when eating lunch knn *facepalm* TTM! desireee even laughing.. super super paiseh max! can! her frien say not easy to chase her and i totally agree haha oh well zhou yi bu suan yi bu weather i get hold of her is another thing le hah!

k gona end here le i bth liao 1 step more to drop into black hole lastly fk u all man for giving me so many lj's

Its easy to say..

Finally free to blog hmm somethings running in my mind! its easy to say but weather able to do it or not it's another thing.. hopefully i am able to slowly get rid of it :< i know is not easy but i will try my best to not to disapoint my love ones espically my mum.. she is super jelly max.. abit only will break down like mad. i will always give in to her no matter i know is her fault i know sometimes i rage her blame her but still she is my one and only mum haizzzz!! 21 le i know what is right what is wrong i am lost sometimes still lucky i have jr to always help me up tell me teach me guide me very happy to have him as a bro! really treat him like my own blood bro no doubts! so recently he show me the pix of his backk after he go for the acupuncture cos he work then accidenally sprint his back! the momment i saw the pix i was omg my heart sank like i feel sad cos arr is so pain la and also this shows that he meant smth alot to me thats why i will react like this!! hopefully he will recover soon asap :)

so yea now holidays was working in starhub so i met this colleague girl name desiree she was so helpfull and friendly towards me but i was stupid i did something wrong FML i go tweet that she and her friend was b1tching other girls on my twitter.. den on the 3rd day of work she added me twitter and i totally forget that i got tweet about them.. so on the 4th day of work she approach me and say she is a very straight foward person and she straight ask me so i saw ur tweet that u were saying we are XMM and we were b1tching about another girl? i was like OMG WTF GGGGGGGGGG to meeeeeeeee so i tried to explain that i was really saying tat u are XMM is jus that i am older so to me i see u as a mei mei but not saying tat u are XMM and i apologise to her.. so she nxt momment reply me dont need explain and say sorry she will feel awakard! and lets drop the matter! i was like... and i can feel that she was kind of unhappy tat i tweeted that but i am really sorry i keep saying sorry to her and she was like its okay nvm.. but in my heart i feel is totally not okay lor zzzzz den from that momment onwards i know she will treat me differently le like build up her wall against me to protect herself.. arrw FML man she is short short kind of cute and got the vein look! but i kind of like her la but now i can dream of even like her cos i am out of her friend list i guess.. so is not surprise to see her deleting me from fb and unfollow me on twitter after my work ends on this month septemeber.. i jus wan to really let her know that i dont mean it really but i jus duno how to start or am i even given a chance to say it to her i duno man... guess i jus lost a friend for nothing or maybe not who knows.. maybe she will close a eye and forgive me but i dont think so ba. but still is really a small thing but in her eyes i bet is a freaking huge shit.. oh well i can suck thumb and jus move on ba..

so i told kkj abt this matter she says that i am a normal guy meaning i wont go notice all this thing... but i really never had a thought that this will happen ma! she go see my old tweets and happen to let her see tio and end up i am fcuked! zzzz so baddddddddd la i knowwww...so i been recently keep thinking dammit why so suay de let her see tio the tweet.. suay max.. but this girl desiree is really naise la all i can say and sociable..

Nvm la this world so many womans no scared cant find my true love..and i know how to piroity my friens who is first cos from wat i see it for myself i know who are really there for me and who are not.. so even u are 9yrs good buddy with this friend and another friend is jus 1yrs+ going 2yrs eventually the 2ys friend will be there for u first.. so ya like this lor.. this is life! ok shall end here! :)

Arrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!

i jus wan to rageee all i wan in in my blog and say out how i feel! :((( wo hen tong ku ar! wei semo ni men jiang dui wo!!! ok i need cool down before i blog it out... 10mins ago jus when smoking ok now i going blog wat happen! so it goes like this i got this clique they are my sec mate so we this month keep meet up for supper and lepak. so 1 day this 2 bitches namely charlene and huimin 1 jus ended work and we go fetch her she rage at me for not bringing her to 2chef as i promised when her bdae come i will bring her but she jus bo tai bo ji rage at me cos we jus finish having dinner at 2chef den went to fetch her so guess she was angry abt it ok so nvm wor.. i very cool person i let her rage in the car all she wan so i keep quiet ok so nvm after that go eat dessert and send the rest home. nxt the other sec mate jus ended watching movie with her bf is around 1+ going 2  le and left only me and jo tgt at changi village relaxing talking drinking teh and she called and ask me got anything to eat at our area bo so ok i say frien fries so she say ok and i bought for her cos she say till if dont buy she bo sua with me i am like wtf did i do again this b1tch huimin is forever raggy girl so nvm bought for her le. so as jo send me back first he drive to amk and send her the fries. not even a thankyou knn to either me or jo nvm wor. i very pissed off cos got taken for granted where got people buy u food no say thank you so very demanding meh jus a thank you only wor....

So nxt day i told jo i super angry lets meet for dinner with me and alice jus nice alice came over at my house to take her things and she jus nice wan dinner so we 3 went tgt eating half way huimin and the other girl amanda called us and ask wan meet bo they at sengkang only.. so jo say later den we talk abt it.. so call ended. so after dinner send alice home while me and jo go have ice-cream at east coast which is ard 11+ le so we saw at twitter this huimin post something like  要就讲要，不要就讲不要。 婆婆嘛嘛，做 girl 算了。  看不起这种男人 Next time dont bother calling us out, disgusting freak. _|_  Major turn off. Yucks  Think we kiam eng meh? Fuck off pls. so jo reaction was so big that he got so fking scared and blame me for everything cos is i dont wan go meet them and end up make him so hard to quo ren until he no choice but not to meet them.. so he was saying to me wtf not my business sia now become he got scolded so otw home we quarrel all the way in the car. nxt day he go confront them and tell them is not his fault and all and tell them i am unhappy abt them for ragy at me for no reason and buying fries for her and not even saying a ty..

so my reaction was WTF GG dont expect me to go out with u all le there is a price to pay for saying it out to them i told jo in whatsapp.. so now win le lor all cb me seriously if u fking think u sibei boss thinking by posting " Think we Kiam Eng Meh" dare u say it infront of my face or tweet it tgt with my name dont indirectly tweet..shooting me i see le hen bu shuang.. so u thinking i fking old u de la dont meet u all rage simi lj is this so now the girl who rage at me for nothing nxt day whatsapp me sorry she didnt mean it while this hui min not even a sry or wat thinking waa she sibei kiang ahlian talk loud think i scared meh pls la nb dont make me go back to my old self i make sure she cry infront of me knn.. so u think i kiam eng u de la for not meeting u all together for dinner? pcb major super kan pua dulan!

so wat i trying to say is where got so bitchy b1tch de eh u all dont think i duno u all using joseph for his car only la hor fetch here fetch there.. this joseph also no brain 1 side telling me wa cb his petrol drain until like mad and the other side blaming me for everything jus because she tweeted all those fking xl gl words. so wat do we call this holes before bros? haiz i duno wat to say le laaaaa i damnnnn angryyyyyyyyy fking angryyyyy wan rageeeee punch the girl face without regrets also can la!!! where is mr joseph balls why people only tweet like this his reaction so biggg and end up screwing it up now i get outcast. wtf is this! ok nvm i need cool down really can go sot.. this post too much vuglarties le.

so this incident happen on monday now is friday i been alone at home revising my upcoming exams only jr knows what i been going thru the hard times really if i wan focus well on my exam i cant have anything in my mind distract me i will sure buang badly or wont do well i know myself de :( i wan cry le la jus wan break down why so many shitss happen to me recently wo quai yao feng le!!! ARRRRRR fk all this ok bye....

Haizzz..

Back to my blog cos i have things in my mind running which i duno to be sad or angry.. so here it goes this classmate of my is angry at me u know why cos i suan him poke him like mad if u cant afford to play then dont start la he can say something like "Punggol people no up de la" and when teacher going thru those important qns for exam den end of class i go ask teacher abt some parts of the qns i duno how to do. As i walk back to my seat he shoot me so easy do no need ask de la in a scarastic manner. Tmd doesnt mean u know how to do u can talk in such way b1tch u are jus like one of the classmate the girl who is so proud yea u get A big fcuk arh. u dont wan to be humble nvm wor dont ceebai taunt me with such words and looks. Cos when i start dont blame me nb i can be even more scarstic and words can be damn hurting when come out from my mouth. Cant afford to play then dont start really 1 word weakling. Huh that time i ask u how to do this qns u reply me wat oh i am busy, sry i outside, i having dinner, yea eh fcuk u wan to help u will call me back dont come giv me alibaba excuese nb got 1 time doesnt mean i will be understanding to know oh he is busy so therefore he cant help me.. yaya i not so dumb to beileve it dont wan help jus say i can find others nnb. Dont wear a mask infront of me really.. i get sick of it. This wat i am facing in sch those fcuk up people.. Yea u can tweet  smth like" i kept quiet doesnt mean nothing happen. i am trying to be patience and I'm controlling. so now should i reply to ur tweet jus bring it? wan i can do it de wor bloody hell.. but i decided not to i go sch to study work hard not to disapoint my love ones not to find trouble but if i have no choice i will do it. that is if i got no choice but to do it. Lucky class still got majority nice guys and 2 nice ladies too.

Ok enough of ranting feel better after i wrote it out on my blog. Damn sian to face that 2 classmates who is so proud haiz.. its ok come to think of it i still got my loves ones who are my true friends.. so why bother abt ppl who are so fcuk up :)

Jus finish bathing going to do my work now le and do abit revise so fast 7+ le.. and pls A dont find me when u need me to help u with smth... i feel like shit when u have a bf yet always finding me appear infront of my door step for watt ur bf useless de ar got problem he cant handle for u? must need me meh and when u are done with me helping u disappear for 2-3 weeks den suddenly bomb appear infront of me again or sending me random text got miss u? wat i doing faster reach home stop drinking wat call u when i hit home? u are making me damn confused... i am spare tyre? haizz being too nice to u le.. and yet end up hurting myself :( duno how to describe this feeling haiz nvm i going to do my work now and stop thinking abt all this shits le..

Life's up n down..

So what i been doing this few weeks as usual same everyday school in morning hit home 6+ 7+ den bathe eat and do my work. Got back my maths result got a C means 60+ range all along i been failing all my class test so teacher was shock that i got a C for maths x.x but i am happy tat i pass hah its tough man will work harder to score a B or A. Told my dad abt the results he is happy he said well done work harder for my coming major exam. which is 1month from now. Gona try hard for my coming 3 big exams..

Now to me playing games is jus to relax n i am contented when i got my first win already. Not like last time i rage like a -.- when i lose games or try hard to win a game in ranked games... lucky that i still have my skills haha!

Started working last weekends le this weekend will still be the same at vivo city working. i dont feel is bored or shagg when i working duno why maybe very long nvr work ever since last yr F1 till now.. Of cos now i need to plan for my time management for my revision and working. Can see my some of my classmates working and studying at the same time still can score so good results.. Must learn from them le.

Miss the times when i am young 16-19 to not need to worry abt anything everyday at home playing games slack go sch as normal no stress etc as i aged need to start worrying abt all these.. my future wat i wan to be wat i wan to do etc.. haizz

So this is for someone incase thinking that yea i am so free to play games chat etc yea u are totally so wrong i am busy as always jus finding time to blog and do the things i wan to do..

Jus today done with my presentation for projects.. nxt week 2 more to go and thats all i hope no more projects man.. damit didnt know poly so many projects wtfux.. need cope with studies need do projects wth think we so free arrrr but nvm i can do it de all i need is time management!!.

Some people really think she so smart yea fcuk u jus because u got all A's doesnt mean u can be proud abt it. ceebai sometimes jus wan kan u lor so proud for fcuk! 17 nia 1995 de.. Wonther if she ever feels how people look at  her when she giv all the bossy b1tch attitude in class. Jus makes me think of something only after my poly u can fk off from my life :) Glad that i got all the naise guys in my class! so far ok can get along with them..

k gona end here le.. will update when i have time or have sorrows to type out ! or when i feeling down heh!  

i am back bloging ^_^

So yea came here to type abt how's my life now i guess is doing good 2nd half semester jus started first week have pass back to nom on studies projects all 1 whole sum of projects waiting for me to do damn sian larhx nvr ending de the projects.. 1 down nxt momment new 1 coming up damn retarded de i also duno why ask us do this project also in future wont use it on work somemore -.- damn.. ok so yea nvr drink for 2 weeks le and counting hah jus doing normal lifes at home relax watch movie online sometimes go out watch movie with friend drink teh relax dinner all.. will take up a job soon for sat and sun for some income for me.

Recently did some catch up with DH hah so he told me that he saw the bloody "big bad fox" in nex mall same theatre and movie as him LOL! and he ask me guess is who lololo and my first guess was correct is tat muther fcuking Sinnnnny wat a b1tch will never forget how u backstab us nnb jus because of 1 girl for urself.. so Dh was telling me he was still wearing his baggy pants LOL ceebai and his face look like dog thats how DH describe him lololo.. laugh until my jaw drop. bloody ass study some UNI and his thinking is so cunning wicked sick and yet unforgiven. lucky got my jr ren ren to catch his fking tail so sadd arrw u gt CAUGHT red handed b1tch. i wan thx you in person 1 day i see u in rl for making the 4 of us more closer lololo. And letting me to see the world more clearly what kinds of people out there in the society. u are 1 scary muther fcuker! BACKSTAB huh thats the worst thing u can do la so stupidddddddd like a Sohai. study so clever also no use cos end of the day u are jus a ceebai in my eyes. In Dh eyes u are worst then a beast LOL u hurt him alot backstab him like siao i will never forget how my bro DH feels tat time nothing can describe it. U jus a Big Bad Fox if 1 day u can see this or got the chance to see this post nah this is for u _!_.

haha ok enough of saying tat big bad fox. so for me i am ageing as days goes by learning alot thru out my life walking step by step thru out this poly route. what i can say is nothing is impossible is weather u wan do it or not. i must tell myself to jiayouu i can do it nvr give up no matter how hard jus try my best to solve it :)

Time to change my life.

Yea exam over but jus only 3 days for me to enjoy and i am back to sch :< when drinking last night but i felt eh why i didnt really enjoy myself like last time isit due to 2 weeks didnt when there and suddenly after steping in again after 2 weeks my surrounding ard me changes i didnt enjoy my night yes things were the same there but i didnt enjoy why!! :(( yes and another reason why i didnt enjoy because tis 1 muther fcuker joseph he is so fcuking ass stubb0rn u think everyone like me ar so forgiven to u after u screw things up for me and yet jus within 1 night can settle it yes i may say ok still bros but yet inside i still need some space from u due to he say some muther fcuking words thats are so ceebai and thinking wow u are so smart " His Phrase goes like this yea i have a scholarships brain u do not have therefore he is smarter then me. JOKE OR NOT? He using his dad brains to use it on himself to hit on me after i went hard on him against yinru i guess he wanted to protect her oh well u are 1 muther fcuking dumb piece of shitx. there are more alot damn crazy de. nvm wor then recently he go call victor and ask abt me in the end let victor troll max. so ok after my exams which was ytd only night me and him outside enjoying celeberate my exams over time to party drinking all he come send me msg " can i join u guys" HE KNOWS VICTOR would tell me oh no pls he come i leave thats what vic told me and end up he jus die die wan's a answer from it why he cannot join us why isit by calling victor that make him so hate him. duhh of cos la not everyone like me can close 1 eye leh once ppl dislike u pls dont try so hard to still wan to come along and u wont feel buay paiseh or left out? why u cant think of all this and yet still insist u wan a answer for it. so this b1tch went to msg vic after i didnt reply him and he created alot problem for vic we was outside drinking happily enjoying ourself he keep msg msg till spoilt our night FCUK RITE! self-ish think for himself only such a idiot dumbass weakling to girls easily apologise when he did smth wrong. EH ur apologise i hear until bored already pls pls instead of apologising i willing wish u can change i do not need ur apology omfg pls leave me alone i beg u 2months + pass le u been emoning in ur own fking world and pulling me along with ur problems tat i have to solve for u which is UNSOVLABLE!! why cant u listen!!

It jus like yea he screw up this friendship with my sec classmate girl and he wants everything back to be the same which is cannot and it will never happen!! he jus wan things solve by his ways and everyone to bend down on knees to go in his way. u already bang the fcuking wall how many times and u wan things to be the same are u fking kidding me. Is jus like yea i fcuk ur gf behind u and i apologise and i wan everything to be back to normal u think it can be happen? NO OF COS! goddamit u are my 8yrs bro this year u really make too much mistakes till is crazy madness u are haunting a girl till she is scared worst den stalking nb..haiz so i was so piss off i send him a long msg i told him to leave me alone we need some space btw each other dont look for me or call me ur problems u settle urself dont even come to my house door step to settle it cos i will ask my bro to send him off without fail. u really make me piss off ttm worst spoilt our night due to ur own self-ishness FF UU understand! Continue to bang more walls ba i cant be bothered le jiang le bu ting le bu zhuo.. hopeless le.. gt money got car also no use money cant buy u happiness..


Ok back to me i didnt enjoy myself last night maybe i feel bored le after 2months + been drinking at the same thai pub guess will be finding back my old ways of enjoyment stay at home relax play game when i free or friends ask to meet for movie or steamboat den i go out or maybe for shopping. other then that guess i wont go le really is bored le is not enjoyment also i duno how to phrase it also.. oh well will continue to work hard for my poly life.. and is time to meet my hao buddy jr and kkj sis sibei long nvr see that 2 idiot le LOL and he telling me he grow some white hair already LOL laugh until my jaw nearly drop x.x i know very bad hahahx. k ending here le will update my blog when i have time heh. 

Long Route...

Hi i am back on my blog really neglected alot of things ever since poly started my games lol friends blog alot la had been studying like a idiot like no life because i dont have the basic foundation for all this modules that i am taking therefore i need work extra hard research solutions on how to do and solve all this equations. Poly ppl is soo fcukkeddd uppp they are so self-ish i hate them alot when i need ask qns at home when i pm or sms them they will keep telling me i am not free sorry cant help u i am busy going cycling or wat i eating dinner later get back to u! U KNOW WAT all fail to help me say get back to me also never haizzz fkkk la why cant u all jus help one another why so 2 face when u facing me in sch and at home is totally different person i am facing.. In sch they seems helpfull when at home dafark all self-centred b1tches care for themself only sibei dulan maximum.. 2 more days to my exam 1 week taking 3 main module exams which consist of 30% which is alot la.. i been trying too hard last 4 days 5am sleep working on my revision really sibei stressss laaaa fcukkkk. Tried to play a few games to cool myself down after later back to work again.. i often get headache now haizzz.. i nvr try so hard in my life for studies man when i am way back in ite so relax can slack and play and pass.. Now leh play also cant slack also cant fff man NYP really very jing zhen when comes to study. i can hear what my classmates i wan aim DIRECTOR award?? i was like WTFUX u serious that make me so crazy didnt know my class A2 is so hardc0re type.. i can see other class talking about dota games bllackshot but my class none talk abt games or even girls -.- wonthering cb are they gays... super rabak ttm!

This 2months really been thru all this can i really still hold on with my studies.. total 3yrs and now 2months+ only i am like that already i skip going thai pubs drinking etc jus for this exam.. and i should stop drinking le been going to thai pub everyweek without fail.. should get back to my old-self when free jus go play LoL instead of going out with frien to go thai pub drink -.- hang flower alone only bill came out to $250 fk man didnt know i spent so much haizz for the 1month havent count the drinking bottles.. damn siao i know but ya enjoyment also for awhile only i should really stopppppppp!! plus i never work already spending so much holy fcuk.. yes dad knows i go there he didnt stop me for some reason i duno why but can see he doesnt like it oh well..

And to my bro joseph fking pass 2months keep telling me same girl this problem tat problem i wan go siao already lor keep holding his hand to walk guide him how to handle the girl sometimes feel like kan him hopefully mr darling jr can giv him 1 rabak 1 soon bloody hell i got my things to handle study etc and u another side asking me for solutions How what should i do, did i did anything wrong, wat i do to make her like this, why she change so much,why are we not close like last time, fff uuu of cos girl will change la once u like someone which is a girl and is a close friends sure things changes what plus u did multiple mistakes over and over again and this mistakes is all those super rabak 1 even dh also cant win u urs is worst then him ttm! let ppl hear already cfm laugh and cry and even think wtfux damn real. And u are glad i didnt even blame u a single shitx cos after all this happen i and those classmates girls became not so close thx to u cos they know i and u are good buddy's so of cos they wont ask me out already la cos they know if i go u also will follow duhh.. but nvm i dont really care le tey are not important in my life's also.. keep a few important ones will do u know who u are

Gona end here le 5.30am now tml wake up study again.

Indescribable

Sometimes trying too hard in what ever things u do will make u insane lost and suddenly when u wan to do it ur mind suddenly goes blank haizz.. i know myself i been trying hard in my studies now which make me feels so different now at times when someone like example mum ask me eat dinner i will talk loudly towards her it is because i feeel soo... which i duno how to describe my mind is keep running why this why that how to solve who can help me etc i been trying to work my way out to handle my studies wo hao leh le :( stop gaming i have did it le while else on the weekends been drinking almost every week which i think can destress me looks like i am wrong le :( is jus like yea u are happy for a momment like 3-4hours in the pub drinking etc and suddenly the next day u wake up is back to normal life and whats more hangover due to over drink of alochol. haizz what should i do noww.. at times now i stone for secs asking myself am i ok am i over clocking my body and mind am i able to cope all this if i fall now who will be there for me.. been telling myself i cant fall i need to stay strong  till everything ends. sometimes at night 1+ i go down alone to grab a Teh to drink and chill why all my close buddies stay so far from me :( sometimes jr my parents ask me am i ok ma for my studies i reply yes actually but the truth is i duno whats the ans.. and i feel very lost sometimes but till i am gona tell myself i can do it!  Gona end here le i feel my head is very heavy now after writing all this gona rest on bed and grab a coffee in the morning to keep myself awake later..





 

Poly Life!

Ever since i started poly omfg really need neglect my games my lol friends buddy all and focus on my fcuking poly work the A maths is really no kidding freaking hard to do everyweek i have homework to do mon-fri freaking 9-6 or 8-5 at sch timetable shag max reach home 7+8 bathe finish all dinner 9+ do my work 10+ 11 and need sleep nxt day same thing...In Poly time is precious late 1 min teacher scold u give u warning nb bloody hell really hate the morning wed 8am lesson teacher freaking @sshole his gona send me my first letter without fail if i late tml.. damn fierce strict guy and do maths he love to skip steps and write answer  straight bloody hate him la... but tat doesnt mean i gona hate maths i am a maths lover is jus tat tis freaking A maths all is total new thing to me need ppl who can help me and guide me with my maths.. those who put in effort willing to teach me i will really put in my heart to learn it and remeber it in my brain but bear with me i need to keep repeat tis why why and u need to explain to me 3-4 times to me den i will really oh ok understand le. A slow learner :( but i am willing to try hard for this fcuking maths!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Got karmen jie jie to help me along on phone with her to do maths for jus 3qns we took 2hour+ damn siao rite LOL very glad and happy she willing to help me xoxo and patiencely explain to me again and again why tis why is like tat how to do it how to sub in this and that.. lucky she didnt scold me phew and keep repeating help me hope she dont go mad at me x.x Nah karmen jie jie if u gt read my blog typing tis to uuu! thxxxxxx alottt appreaciate alottt too!!

All i wan to say is very stress shag in poly not like ite so relax and i can score! everything is differenttt! gona work hard for it! thx those who keep encouraging me i can do it have faith on me like ex. jr darling, victor!, karmen jie jie, xoxo u all!

Life been pretty ok jus everyday not enough sleep thats all and feel freaking tired the momment i hit home! need get use to this kind of lifestyle no choice. Jr also everyday work come back also freaking tired now i can feeel himmm plus he drive too even tired!! the feeling iss sooooo arrw whole person shaggg!! max.



  

What exactly i wan in life?

Come to think of it what do i exactly wan in my life to be honest i duno it myself reason i also duno feel fking lost and yes tml is my first day of poly and yet i am not looking foward to it why i also duno. The reason why i can say duno because after today all the things i do yea i go thai pub drink enjoy spent $$ and i am saying abt 3digits tat i have spent on drinks etc girl come pei u drink sit with u accompany u arrr wadever it is end of the day yes u get the enjoyment that is for a few hours! yup definitely i enjoy myself but what i am trying to say is wat is the meaning of "love"? The reason i have this qns is while i was at thai pub drinking i saw this guy super familar which is the gf blog i always read abt their stories how loving they are each other etc. the momment i saw him str8 away my mind flash and think eh isnt this the guy on the gf blog i always read on the blog saying how lovely they are etc. and they been tgt for 2yrs plus and now the point is why this guy appear in such pub and i seen him around with 2-3 thai girls and he enjoying himself like a boss while later brought 1 back home in a car. SO now my qns is did the gf treat him badly OR he is playing behind the gf OR he jus wan to play around more and yet still tgt with the gf. Yes i know this is not my business ya but what i truely wan to know is so now u tell me what is the true meaning of "LOVE". someone can explain it to me? and is the perfect ans tat i could accpect. i am not saying i am a good guy duhh i dare to admit i am a bad guy thats why my last ex broke with me oh well LAUGH OUT LOUD at myself man for being a dumb guy who did not cherish the girl who love me. really silly or maybe tis is wat i call karma strikes back haiz..

Ever since my last ex i lost the feel of love and yet now i wan is get a gf yes honest to her no playing around and really treat me like a bf. ya i do not need any wat sex from  u or wadever shitx jus true love is it tat hard to find such a girl in sg i duno really. yea A u telling me u love me and yet u gt a bf so really wtf u trying to tell me i really cant catch it. u gt a bf and u telling me u love me SIMI LJ u making me more piss off rather den liking u again u knowwwwww or nooooott... ya i bet u duno cos u will nvr know wat i trying to pass my message across ur head. so even though yehh i am tgt with u or maybe accpect u as my gf will i be happy? is this wat i want? the answer is i really duno.. so thats the reason why i am fking trying to avoid u cos i really du no wad i can giv u also..

so end of the day ya i enjoy myself at there but the momment i hit home i dont feel i am happy is like i think i did smth wrong in my life to go play around i duno man jus bec i am single is tat the right thing to do i may be wrong maybe i did the correct thing jus to make myself happy jus for awhile and end up feel not happy when i reach home? did liquor jus fking brain wash me? or is my life too boredddd till i need to do all this yea those who after reading this sure thing wow i am like this, this is wat i do outside when i am with friens etc.

so for now from wat i see those guys tat appear in thai pub or wadever shit pub clubs duno what is the meaning of "love" also ba? True or Not? hope i am wrong cos this is wat i think that they duno wat is love thats why they need go thai pubs all to play around or their gf is way too bored till they need go such places.

Really respect and salute my dad who only love my mum and never once play behind her back. ya he gamble so wattt u other ppl those realtives or who say yaa gamble is badddd den what to we call those that are married and is still playing behind their wife. call them Bastards? or come to worst. worst den dog in chinese.. so fk who ever say gamble is bad yes i know is bad so watttt as long as u dont gamble until declare bankupt and drag ur family down other then that everything should be fine. i dont blame my dad for gambling but i see ppl who always gossip like those fking san gu 6 por yaa ur daddy gamble is so badddd oh yea fk u man u know shitx. A person who gamble is to kill time and make themself happy and yet working everyday too and feeding the family i can feeeel my dad way too much tats why we can understand each other.

ok gona end here ohh mr ren ren and kkj pls come back asap gona bored to death no one to talk cock with me and when i gt qns no one to find to help me with it damn yes vic kor kor has been helping me hah xoxo him too!

End of the day did i enjoy myself?

Really haizzz..

Guess is a fcuk up day even though i gt my results yea going in to nanyang poly parents are happy and went out with victor to watch movie eat good food etc enjoy myself but why this fking game lol make me emo or dulan or wadever. before went out have 2 games LOSE back home play also lose + fking pub afk due to i scold him only like 3 sentence? da fark ridiclious lor and the way he talk like a fking adult with emo fcuk up mindset using chim english words on me. this ppl ar wan emo and cant stand ppl comment doing foolish retard stun wat skaner go ulti tanker and force engage make us lose and let me shoot 3 sentence and afk? fk urself man uninstall this game la really freaking burden to us.

Enjoy game means trolling and spamming laughter on the hero u use like example lulu the new champ u spam will giv the sound hahahahx hahahhax hahahahahx not irrtating meh cb.. shouldnt it be playing at a relax mind not so serious type and win the game and enjoy the game at the same time? Girls thinking and guys thinking really different no wonther la forever cant understand what they thinking. still shoot me back spam laughter gt crime ar? cannot meh? cb lanning at bot lane 2v2 i busy last hit u busy spam the lampa laughter do nothing i feel piss off lor like tio troll man.

ok enough of me kpkb feel dulan now and angry and sian and reluctant. enjoy myself out with mr victor trolling always with his words what before sleep u must "BLAST IT OUT" den can sleep da fark super troll man lmao!

Seems like playing lol wont make me happy single also like that actually i now no need worry i have friens or not u know why cos jr teach me u gt money u know how earn ur brain smart u do business ppl come to u and not u go to ppl. i shall get this into my brain ba. since i am able to go poly now which i always wanted when i am in ITE now i able to go into a good poly i shall not slack and work towards my goal.

Shall sleep now tml working!

Once decided Never look back!.

hi i am back to blog again! life has been ok up ands down! hahax.. oh well tis month happy my  jr darling frens Victor! gave me a brand new com hahax so naise of him and even bring me out to enjoy life eat all shisha tgt 2 ppl jus go out the whole day even is jus 2 guys i didnt find bored cos we forever got lots of things to talk hahax like for example girls? hahax!! enjoying my life now even thought i am single oh well.. jus 1 day only i be waiting the right girl to appear infront of me and truly love me..

I HATE PEOPLE WHO ALWAYS DON'T HAVE CASH ON HAND.

I am not talking about poor people, but those who always choose to withdraw very little money out of the ATM, like $20 at a time, despite having money.

This is a very broad stroke because it's very normal for us to run out of money sometimes. I do too. The key word is ALWAYS, and also this is very important - how you handle the situation when you run out of cash on hand.

I'm sure all of you, like me, have friends who are always low on cash. So whenever there is a group dinner at a restaurant that doesn't take credit cards and they don't have enough cash to pay, you help them pay first. Or in shared cab rides, you have to fork out more. Or you invite them over for a game of poker/mahjong. They lose, no cash. Owe you first.

I find these people super irritating.

As a general rule, people who feel embarrassed about borrowing money will always try to get rid of that ashamed feeling by returning it fast. AND these people usually have cash, to prevent such a situation from happening in the first place, so it stands that that people who always don't have cash, usually will not bother to return money efficiently, or at all.

I am not a very kaykao person. I don't remember it when people owe me money, and often I don't remember to remind them. But when I do actually remember, I RESENT having to open my mouth and ask for the money. It's embarrassing. And when I remind and the person STILL doesn't pay me back, I hate having to ask again. And worse of all, sometimes the amount is small, like $10 or $20. It would seem like I'm such an asshole to go ask for it back.

But it isn't about the money. It's about the person's incorrect thinking. It is not polite to borrow money from people, furthermore with such a cavalier attitude to it. I don't care that much about the $10, I care that you put me in this situation of discomfort and thus, I don't feel like giving that $10 to you b!tch.

Don't get me wrong. I'm not a stingy, miserly person. If this occurs not infrequently, it's totally ok for me to fork out a bit more for my friend. But if out of 10 situations 8 times the person has no cash to pay for it, I'd start to be frustrated.

If they don't have money to participate in whatever activity be it dinners or outing, they shouldn't! How can they expect people to pay for them first, always?

If they have the money and they know they are going to be needing cash, isn't it just polite of them to go withdraw some before they come out or join us?

And after borrowing, sometimes I see them walk pass an ATM machine with me and I'm thinking "WTF? Why isn't she withdrawing to pay me back?? THE DINNER FREE AH?". I get it that sometimes people forget. But it's about not making it happen so often that slowly, people KNOW they always have to pay for you and would rather not meet you anymore.

There, that's the problem with Askers.

They think, "If you don't want to lend me money why don't you just say no? When I walk past that ATM and didn't notice it why didn't you just ask me to withdraw money for you? You needed the money back urgently meh?"

How do you say "no" to someone borrowing $10? It is extremely confrontational and making things awkward, and I get irritated that I am put in that situation where I have to reject you. I am doing you a favour by helping you pay, why do you have to make things difficult for me? Doesn't seem fair there.

And we come to the part where I am the most fucking pissed about. When asked about why they always don't have cash, these people always reply "Because when I have no cash I spend less."

Or some other variety of bullshit such as "I am trying to save money" or "I think using card I can have accounts of where my money went".

It makes me sooooooooooo fucking angry. You think the rest of us don't want to also spend less? Or that we don't wanna save money and have accounts of our spendings clearcut to us?

Yeah you successfully save money... Because people are fucking paying your shit for you! What bullshit about spending less when you don't have cash... You spent it didn't you? Just without your own money!! If you truly think that with less cash you'd spend less, then you shouldn't have participated in that outing/dinner that cost you money! Go dinner with the group but don't order anything or order within the money you DO have!

Irritating!!

In general I think working adults should always withdraw at least $200. When it goes low to about $50, it's time to withdraw again.

Its writen by xiaxue the post i jus copy paste i find it damn true ya recently meeting my so called sec friens and others like duhh there this girl always no money when come out with us den always we been paying for her like 3-4 times le? like come on no cash fcuking dont join us or at least dont be so fking thick skin say borrow ok we lend den the nxt few outing duno how auto return us? like da fark AUTO abit oh my fking god  sake not say i am here complanning i find it damn true yea u work while else i dont duh so i dont see a reason why u no cash or maybe like $5-$10 in ur wallet like fk? all keep in bank for wat earn interest isit.. come to girls who borrow money i am very scared de terror only and always go out no money etc we ATM isit u eat wat drink wat we pay den u giv us ur pussy for exchange den. like that i call it fair trade i am not trying to be a bastard or what but is true pls.

Firstly i got this sutitation before she no $$ i always treat her in return wat i get HURT from her how not to piss off u tell me LA really FFFFUUUU yes i am here complanning the $$ i spent on u and how the fcuk i get to like u and end up all become sadness and dulaness. really all way too fcuked up thx to u now the things u did to me i wont forget. even seeing u outside or wat i wont say hi to u maybe even avoid u also have. u gave me the feeling i jus duno how to face u after u did tat to me. it really hurted me alot till its unexplaninable. why u need do this do me! fcukkkk uuuuuuuu.. even no matter wat i say or did make u angry is sooo ridiclous of u to throw smth at me like duhhh! ok enuff of ranting fk.

i am a very easy going person u treat me naise i treat u x10 better thats for sure as long as i see u really is nasie to me i will do my part too be it guys or girls apply the same. jus like to my darling jr treat me damn good jus at some times scold me also i wont take it to heart i know i did smth wrong inbetween thats why he need to raise his voice at me and scold me but nvm at least i learn smth etc. go out with him always happy de sometimes he send me home from west also nvr complain really damn good la him. those treat me good naise to me i wont forget de and will always treat them back even better!

Is ur lost to lose me as a friend i wont feel a single pinch of hurt in me. 

My Fake smile

Cant really think of any shitx all i get is unhappiness! always trying to make myself busy find a job play games so i wont go think of those unhappy momments but looks like i am wrong even i gt $$ also cant buy happiness. haiz really deep down inside me is never a happy one. those who always see me go out talk all look like happy happy like i am enjoying my life nah u all are so wrong once i am at home i am back to my emo-self really really need get out of sg to enjoy myself staying in sg is bored max. everyday getting old and older more things need to take note abt health future etc. so whats left for me since i am always not happy with myself 1 day really were to go crazy and mad i wont be suprise if i ended up in mental hospital. all the unhappy momments thinks running in my brain no one can solve it but its k i always tell myself endure wo ke yi de.

A ring me up today asking me how am i and all again well at least she gt bf she got the heart to call me very naise of her didnt regret loving her in the past wishing her all the best in her r/s as usual! unlike some people treated me for granted hurt me somemore jus cant beileve how the fark even why i treat u so good maybe i am dumb but nvm i will learn as i move on and see it clearly who are u to me. guess all i can say is Hi-Bye friend and can basically fcuk off from my life. Told myself le when i treat someone good dont ever hurt me i will turn into devil and hate u for life espically to those tat i really got put my heart to love you. even thought god always tell me forgive and forget oh well somethings wan to forgive also hard cos is like a broken glass once is broken it cant be mend back. for bros i can easily forgive and forget but never backstab one another cos thats it the most crazyiest thing u can ever do.

And Priest for nuts online r/s u love me den be truthful to me dont need to fking lie to me and act u online but actually that person is ur frien online ur acc to act afk and play rank games for u. u think i dumb ar if u ownself online u be in Ohana chat not first time le wor u telling me ohh garena update jus now thats why u are not in ohana chat. now i know already is ur frien login ur acc thats why ur acc is not in ohana chat gotcha ya u can lie once but not twice. and dont even start a lie cos when u started a lie u will do it again and again. and so sad ur frien break his promise and tell me everything u told him to do. its ok anyway i dont giv a fcuk abt online r/s jus i find it retarded come on la love me ar come sg la find me show me ur real self photos all are deceiving i am not a fool like hello! really got no idea why u love me i always only jus fuck u in the face and u still love me really silly girl i ever met online love a guy who always scolding her oh well...

so now see what i mean always gettings shitxs problems on me thats why i am never once a happy guy. maybe when i am with jr and kkj dh i am happy la cos they are my true friens or should i say blood bro and sis. i treat them like family go out tgt happy happy enjoy ourself laugh etc eat good food watch movie go shopping all. waiting for the day we go overseas! tgt haha sure fun! who ever hurt them or bully them for sure i gona go full head on defend them! love u guys. dh ar u youngest among us i wont blame u for the wrong things u did its k i and jr will teach u! kkj tis role model of my silly crazy girl always showing us dlcks ! grown up liao woman liao! so if u do wrong things i sure kan u gona be like jr hehehx! so only when time to sayang u we will but time to kan u we wont hesitate hehex!

Haizz ok shall end here hope my role play later 1 time pass den i can start working le!

wo xin li de na xie bu kai xin de shi zhen de hen duo 

   

Yi Ge Ren Gu Dan

Sometimes being single suxs huh no one will be there for u when u are upset or lonely. u got to ownself find self entertainment i dare admit i am not a good guy thats why no girlfriend or girl love me fcuk yea! those who treat me naise de i will treat them double back the love they giv me but those who treat me for granted i giv u shitx and dont expect me to treat u naise cos u dont deserve it. In life i learn alot ever since i know jr teach me way too much things grown up le now i see things is far i think alot when i am alone way too much things le haiz always tell ppl be positive and be happy while else myself am i really happy? i always ask my self tis qns am i even happy while living in this world. all those ppl i love de either hurt me or i left them guess i am bad at r/s ba i suck dont understand girls thinking duno wat da fark is up in their mind thinking tats why fail so many times i also duno how i get to get a gf when i am young those xmm so easy to date them now is too real. Yes i can get a ahlian as my gf np but leh will last long meh awhile only i guess wan find a truely good girl as a gf not easy as i expected. 21 liao time to be srs in wat i do and work towards my future. fk who ever who make me sad i shall ignore u all and find things to make myself happy. In my life only few ppl i treat them as my bro sis they know who are they i can tell u currently is 2 kkj and darling only and my sec friends and my family nothing more le. most love is darling kkj and my daddy. 3most important ppl in my life. i treat u all the best i can give till my last breathe nothing more i shall else for.    

hi i am back!

woo long time no post anything on my fb so guess i got new things to update! my bro come out le! woo he contacted me i was like omfg u finally came out! miss u like mad la miss the old times we 5 go out do crazy things party every weekend party like a rock star and wont havent money issues abt doing anything we want even though 1 person no money to go club we will pay for him thats is how steady we are we come out dont talk abt $$ de u no money we pay can help we help no need say u own me $$ first we treat when going home take cab we always try ask the uncle can sit 5 ppl cos we stay quite near each other mostly is sucess lol some uncle were like scare we run cab -.- come to think of it is like omfg so scared dont drive at night la some uncle understanding if those look really scared we will $50 standby enuff bo to go 5 places no joke de. haha so yea told him on phone be good boi la dont do silly things le inside is much more helll den outside and we miss u alot haha. miss the old times we outside have trouble we settle it tgt no ones get pangseh behind or get bully finally u are out la! damn happy u are like our big boss haha cos why sec times u are like our boss in the class haha fighter n0.1 among the 5 of us angkong siao also u lol oh well hope u change la be good boi! smoke cigg can le! dont even touch others things le priest that time i say u infront u kind of never listen to me and when u go in u know how disapointed sad we are or not!! now u out le lets get reuinted soon 9yrs tgt le and counting on!  now we all 21 le change good boi liao nvr fight nvr find trouble only ppl come find trouble with us den no choice lor recently gt into a trouble but lucky we settle it by using talking and not fist and my darling jr also help me too when i told him i gt problem cos i know my side the bros the power not so strong now my tis big bro out le swee le fking joanne u think ahboi aka ray not here we easy makan ar fk u man i dont care how strong ur husband gang is cant imagine if ahboi with us u dare write those comment or not cfm dont dare u know u cant win us so pls stop acting ur husband is sooo great like wowwww big shot so u can got the ability to go head on with us oh come on u jus a freaking sec class mate of ours so i dont giv a fcuk man u wan trouble i giv u trouble np jus wait u only is lucky ur husband scared of duno wat tats why talk nicely with us joke. i jus dont wan find trouble only if i really wan cfm is not gona be naise gona turn out ugly and i dont wan disapoint ppl around me those i promise de i will keep the promise be good.. espically my dad.

now my close frien is ohana ppl jr yy dh and my sec bros and my steady hao kaki joseph always help me when my com broke down etc even thought sometimes u action abt how rich u are to other ppl i dont care de cos i know u well while else ppl duno u well so pls change to be humble always tell u to watch ur body language dont let ppl think u are rich and u are action jus be humble no one will say u or maybe even u have more friends den me. but its ok i will always teach u the right thing from last time till now u change alot i teach u alot too u learn and apply thats good! maybe if u mix more with my ohana group i think my darling jr can screw some good things to learn in ur brain lol cos jr teach me alot <3 him ttm! i change alot i know myself de from last time a bad boi now a good boi le always trying to be better so wont disapoint my dad too cos he knows abt how crazy bad i am last time tats why now in wat things i do i go out etc he will ring me need him fetch me home cos he scared i stay outside late find trouble or mix with wrong friends learn bad again.. but i wont le la grow up le 21 can think liao mature enuff le know wats right wats is wrong. study is the most important thing i wan do now.

ok tis is a happy post so ya hehex gona sleep now is 4.30am le.. and go for interview later at 10am hope i can get the schedule i wan for my working hours.

Stress week..

So yea recently knew a nice lady that is a teacher wow from jr de haha she is 23 woo hawt ttm lol! can be my jie jie liao lololo very friendly sociable lady and emotional too lol dance salsa de sioll omg sure damn imba hot! lololo. ok so basically my life beeen hmm how should i said i guess is fine ba jus too stress up alot things to study need memorise fcuk 1 module tat i hate learn nothing for the past 6months -.- but haiz no choice need to study still exam coming le.. jus 4 more days left to my exam i can do it de xian ku hou tian! i can endure de after exam i am gona play hard party hard etc. and jr promise me to buy me smth from taiwan if i score well woo challenge accpected.jpg! so i shall not disapoint myself and him and other as well really need work extra extra hard...

Wo yi lu lai zhuo de xuan zhe wo chong lai bu ho hui i made the right choice my decision my actions never regret. 

If you love someone because you think he or she is really gorgeous then it's not love 

it's “Infatuation” 

If you love someone because you think you shouldn’t leave him/ her because other think that you shouldn’t then it's not love 

it's “Compromise” 

If you love someone because you think that you cannot live without his/her touch then it's not love 

it's "Lust"

If you love someone because you have been kissed by him/her then it’s not love

it’s “Inferiority Complex” 

If you love someone because you cannot leave him/her thinking that it would hurt his/her feelings then it’s not love 

it's “Charity” !!

If you love someone because you share everything with him/her then it’s not love 

it’s “Friendship” !!

But if you feel the pain of the other person more then him/her even when he/she is stable and you cry for him/her 

that’s "LOVE" 

If you get attracted to other people but stay with him/her without any regrets

that’s "LOVE" 

If you let him/her go knowing that he has to go but doesn’t want to 

that’s "LOVE"

kkj sis share with me de wow awesome! 

Ohana ppl is love

Whenever i am down sad gt problems need help Ohana ppl jr kkj sis will be there for me so chated with jr bro he told me this and that yup i find it true put urself in my shoes fcuk if i were to do tat to u how will u feel i guess u wont get to feel it cos i wont do it u are jus lucky i can control myself well given others i think long ago 1 shot jus giv u a blow right in ur fking face and giv u knock out on the spot cry go reflect on ur actions on wat u have done. i guess u havent go thru the hardway u nvr fall hard before no one did tat to u before but nvm till 1 day someone will eventually down u like a boss make sure u fall hard and stand up on ur 2 feets alone by urself den from there u will learn.

so chated with kkj sis she guide me along tis and everything after chating with her i feel ok le kkj sis jiu shi kkj sis my forever role model as a girl! i respect her alot she can do alot things which mostly of the girls cant do it this is her she is jus so different from others girls tat i have known so far.

My Last Chesss move has been decided

Basically wad i do is today ring dabby k promise her bring her out so k brought her out today bring her go eat later johnny tag along at 5+ so we went kakaboo to play seeing u happy enjoying urself i am happy too u make me smile. ok so after playing at kakaboo headed over to PS for dinner as we was eating halfway she say tis sentence fking randomly i swear " Dickson do u still like me?" ok i heard le i was blur shock i duno wad to reply so i jus quickly change topic i wanted to dodqe tat qns immediately i very stun at the momment and awkward so yea manage to did it. cos is so freaking wtf when u suddenly say it out like randomly without thinking Johnny is with us he is not invisible de.  ok nvm so she suggested to go johnnny places to stay over night and play with his dogs so ok at first i thinking i all along afraid of dogs and cats going his house i would be terror ttm plus he gt husky so huge tat i can never imagine and i dont dare to but jus for D and to accompany her i agree to it and went to johnny house with her.

ok so halfway while reaching his house i msg roy ur gf and me going johnny house now stay over night the reason why i did it because jus ytd ago he came to confront me in my face to talk about the matter btw her and himself telling me all along i am retarded to listen to her and without knowing the story of it ok i ask him so now because of u 2 going break off u wan blame me? This was the impression i have on him tat he wanted to blame everything on me but i am wrong so wrong till i gt no words to say because after he told me so much tat i didnt know abt which D didnt tell me before abt him always jus telling me her side story and his story of a good side nvr once she told me k so i was blindly 1 sided all along so i told myself ok fk all this i am gona be netural plus my dad knows all his relative and his family everything i dont wan because of this i make and enemy ok so nvm i apologise to him i respect him for who is he is everything u told me u could giv to D i guess i cant do it or should i say i can but not as much power u have tat u can scarfice for her and with ur mum siding u all along which ever u wan she jus give and ur strong relatives u have to support u all the way in wadever troubles u have first 1 i always see is ur relatives comments to cheer u up. ur ego ur pride u can scarfice for her win already u jus over take me by 1 level ahead of me.

ok so i was saying i msg roy but i didnt know roy went to msg her str9 and is like u freaking sabo me but nvm so she ask me while walking to johnny house why u tell roy all this i am like da fark hey u are his gf why u need to scared of ur whereabouts u go where all doesnt he should know and i can feel u are damn scared to let him know where are u and all so she ask me wad i really msg to roy from here on i already dont like the idea u asking me tis and that is like u questioning me i jus dont like the idea so ya and i jus rafly tell her this and then and i jus put on my earpiece and blast the music and walk infront of them and to be honest actually from the start already dont feel confortable with u i jus choose to ignore it but after the kakaboo i told myself i did my part to make u smile so while walking to PS i already took out my earpiece and listen all the way while we were walking to PS and i leave johnny to handle u. Same thing i did also went was going to johnny house i guess my actions are too obvious le my tail is easily catch JR Darling says it correctly i am easily tio catch de my actions i do everything is damn obvious is because why u know i dont like to alibaba play stun i do things str9 foward jus same like i wan confront u i gt qns to ask u or tell u i will go right str8 for u without fail i wont keep it to myself tats me... i prefer things to be settle it immediately.

k so i guess my tail gt catch by u cos u said tis to me in the lift while going up to johnny place dickson pls dont ignore me and talk to me i am like ok i guess u spoted me le so ok i shall face it and tell myself ok i shall face it and talk to u den be normal again.. so ya went to johnny house saw the husky saw the female and male dog i gt freak out my whole person shiver like i eaten drugs the momment they came str8 for me i was so terrify u will nvr know wat the feeling is jus sooo like machamp i saw a ghost really tats how bad it is. ok so johnny say smth like joking la i know touch my dog fur or u are a pussy can go become a girl so i jus entertain u all ya ok fk i am a pussy i go become a girl now.. so nvm i take it as johnny is joking so i am fine with it. so johnny big sister jio for supper go mac eat so ok we tag along so as we was eating and chating johnny big sister is so friendly and HOT sociable and is she 29 damn looks good can communciate so well with me and she say why i so shy cos i am jus like tis whenever i meet a new friend and is a girl i am very shy de i duno why haha and she can see from my impression when ever i am replying her i will look down.. and reply her overall had fun chating with her big sister awesome! and when i look at D face expression u know wats the next think up in my mind she dont like the feeling of this u know why because she is attention seeker and all along i been chating with the big sister and johnny while D sat there quietly not talking and giving some sort of wierd impression to the big sister why i can say tis is because when ever i look into the big sister eyes while she is talking i can see her eyes are looking at D sometimes for wat reason i duno but i can feel that she knows D doesnt like the feeling of it because our attention all was focus on the big sister i can 100% bet on this without doubts the big sisters knows it she is some freaking smart @ss girl tat study duno wad thing now i forget wad it is smth like doctoary etc.. damn high education de tats all i know. ok so she teach me how to cure this phobia not totally really works but she told me to feed the husky the big bone and i manage to do it with my self confidence and thx to her giving me support i can do it and i did it the first time in my life i get so close to a husky after all along i am so fear of them come to think of it they wont bite me so i shouldnt mind but the problem is i mind.. but nvm pass this stage not bad le.. 

ok so ard 4 we go up to johnny balcony so he brought the female dog along ok so while i was taking my cigg to smoke D jus keep giving me attitude dont like me smoke all along from the time i meet her till now whenever i take out my cigg she will kp me rant at me scold me beat me threaten me crush my cigg throw my cigg away etc plus the dog came near to me so as u know i am jus too terrify of dogs haiz so i stand on the chair at johnny balacony D shot me again u pussy la can really go be a girl in a angry tone i am like ok real tats when i started to get abit angri ok so nvm. johnny can see my expression le he told me cool down so ok i dont wan make bad impression to him like first time go his house i giv attitude all bad impression so i didnt show anything i keep quiet continue smoking. so ard 5+ all keep quiet nothing to do so i shot tis qns to johnny and before i shot tat qns to him i told D already i dont mean anything to u so ok i say this to johnny " If u are my girlfriend i am the boyfriend i say i going my friend is a girl house to stay randomly wat is ur answer frankly speaking u can giv me" so D immediately response " Oh so u are siding roy now isit" i told her to stfu and ask johnny answer so johnny response is he wont like the idea of going ppl house stay cos why u are my BF would u like the idea of me going a girl friend house to stay will u mind obvious answer is a YES without doubts duhh. ok so i said well said. so i saw D expression piss not happy with me le so i was smoking and she kp again say giv me the pack of ciggs and ok i gave it to her and she freaking go do it on purpose open the cigg box and let air go in as u know cigg air once go in u smoke = can throw away u feel nothing in it nvm wor i still very relax but tis is the momment tat is too real she take a metal piece and jus THROW AT ME! u know how pain it is or not U FKING KNOW OR NOT u hurt me alot. from there i told myself ok enuff of all this shitx Johnny saw tat he gave me the impression was ok very real he knows tis time i am super pissed. Firstly Discriminate me pussy i can go become a girl,2ndly u open my cigg box let air go in on purpose,3rdly u throw the metal thing on me with ur force and the impact on me was hard and i feel the pain from there onwards i wanted to tell u infront of johnny in ur face to make u xia suay i didnt i hold everything u know or not the feeling inside was way tooo undescriable..

i treat u so good all along u wan wat eat wat i ok go along with it price hw much i didnt really bother as long as u are happy i am ok with it but i jus couldnt take  it u throw the piece of metal thing at me jus because u are pissed angry infront of johnny u know how sad i am or not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u will never know. i gave my best to u i trust u i gave u my blog i always try to make u happy i bring u go out i supported u alot all along when u only told me 1 sided story i though u was right royston is a bad guy i beileve i was blinded by tis thing call "love" all this i did is all jus for u to make u smile now wad i get is wad hurt FCUK u always say i am same as ur bf fk u are totally wrong i have my good and bad points he has his u can nvr put me and him tgt is 2 different thing u now or not sadly u duno i guess u know WHY from wat i see now u are Self-Centered selfish attention seeker ur ego and pride u hold it more high den i expected u only care abt urself only u nvr put urself in my shoe u NEVER i swear u NEVER!!!!! same for ur BF u never put urself in his shoes NEVER once u did it i am so freaking disapointed in ur actions and all tat u have done. Dabby Chan Yu Zhi i really regreted the first kiss i really zhen de it make me become to this state now and ur BF 2 times throw u alone to me i did my part to care for u and also to make u happy i really did my part u will know it best. i am offically sad ttm my heart so sorrow now i swear really way too hurting u did tat to me all i get is nothing hurt after doing so much nice things to u wad i get HURT FCUK i fall too deep le tis time gone case liao tis time really gone and i meant it i should have forgotten u in my mind i should jus disappear myself from u to forget abt u everything single thing tat i did i will remove and delete it from my brain and treat it as it didnt happen at all. i am typing tis and controling my emotions is really too hurting i swear i can break down now like mad jus because of u! Good luck to u in wadever u do and all ur r/s everything all the best. took me 2 hours+ to write all this up. D ur msg u send to me about ur apology is too late le really too late i am hurt way too deep again i fall into the fking blackhole already everything is gone.

And kkj sis i should have listen to u i deserve someone better way better tat will appreaciate me in all the things tat i did u told me before despite how bad her background is i still like her and now since i know everything le taken for granted le.

wo zhen de hen hou hui ren si ni :(

my fault huh?

ok first thing i came back was to rest cos last night i couldn't sleep for some reason i duno why also damn real till i stay awake till morning 8+ and bathe went to sch tats was how bad my insomina was.. so came home and sleep woke up at 7+ talk to D awhile on fb tellling her tml coming over to her house to bring her out to eat and do some things tat will make her smile.. so she said ok and i told her tat tis time u wan giv me black face rage at me beat me rant ur troubles to me all also can.. i wont mind a singe bit.. so yea ok talking finish to D le 

i go play lol and first thing i online Shana pm me ask me go custom with her check my valentine vayne skin cos she bought for me for wat i got no idea from wat she told me was wanted to giv me a surprise..i gt shock of cos and i thx her alot. so nxt thing we went in game her frien use nid solo mid ap nid somemore troll me all along i think nid ap is shitx beside throwing spear he cant do shitx damn paper somemore + we actually can win but shana lag last engage she did nth and die ok so nvm lose ok i accpect defeat! so nxt game with lehjon me jiexiang and her 4 ppl we go lose again man and is bec of wat u know why cos she fking rage quit bec she lose to the vayne nvm den i go say her abit she not happy she rage quit from a win game become a lose and i try so hard and up i lose tis time the momment i click the defeat button i am all so fired up i go the Ohana skype chat gave her a blast and told her this and that u freaking wan to play with me dont giv me ur shitty attitude i dont giv a fcuk u are a girl with PMS on or wadever etc i hate ppl rage quit jus bec u cant tahan the words tat i said to u in game and u jus rage quit make me lose? tis 1 i lose until not happy i really meant it tats why i could rage on the ohana skype and u basically still shoot me and think u are totally not in the wrong and telling my ohana ppl u buy me skin and my mindset is all abt winning and u sort of regret buying me the skin? 

HELLO i didnt even freaking beg u to buy me the skin or priest la priest i gt so poor to need u get me the skin meh i can be freaking scaratic if i am totally piss with u jus pass my limit damit.. so freaking dulan man so i was saying GIV U BACK LA she say no need blah blah and what i wont play with u anymore in normal game or ranked. Hey fcuk if i was so heartless to bo chup u i would have join chawy game tgt with DH all i wouldn't even giv a damn shit abt ur exsist online. and in return all now i get is wat shitx u saying my mindset is win win win only yes of cos i wan to win i play hard work hard in wadever i do i wan to excel in it i not waste my freaking time to troll and play man damit i already trying hard to carry and yes i complain abit but u do not need to the extend rage quit and make me and my friens lose the game for nothing u know how angry i was OR NOT U WILL NEVER KNOW COS U GIRLS THINKING ARE ALWAYS NEGATIVE u will never improve ur skills will still remain the same u will never learn PHUCK. i treated u like a ohana ppl play game ask u along to game and have fun with us end up lei this wat i get isit. u scolded my frien jiexiang like nobody business asking him to shutup all when he was always only trying to joke with me like he gona report me but tats was jus only joking u take it so serious till u ask him to stfu? u are lucky man jiexiang is a calm and relax guy if not long ago u get fuck by him hard too.. Real la why all this even happen man yes i know is jus a normal game and ya i take it seriously but i dont expect u to giv such a ragey attitude man.. haiz ok la huh my fault i shouldnt even rage abt tat game should drop it.. now causes u to leave the ohana skype chat.. i swallow everything down ba i shall go reflect on myself always to rember myself not to treat girls so harsh and my words are always so hurting,scaratic and tis is jus me i gt things to say to u i will thrash things out str8 foward without waiting.. thx for making me smoke 4 ciggs in 10mins tats was how stress ,piss, angry the momment i saw u rage quit! so to cool down i smoke! so now i guess for me to quit smoking is hard haizzz.. 12 more days to my big exam hope i can do well for it. shall play less soon again  phcuk everything tat had happen today.... really hate it... nan dao zhen de si wo de cuo? :(

Standing right next to u

Ok now i gt 2 weeks from nows is my big exam! 5march and 7march so tis week is basically i gona relax abit play and study! after tis week over the follow week i will wack hard on my books! i wan to score! for my exam! and i am proud to say i gt back my results today for the friday test!! gt 89 marks! oh my gawd! so happy la my hardwork really pay off muahhahahax so happy and my elo is back to 1.6k :D work hard play hard weee.. and wat do i meant by if u dont work hard u wont see the results i gt 1 frien nxt day test same as me he was playing PS3 throught the night and nxt day go wack the test rofl he study for 2 hours only.. and he fail lol need retest.. while else me is study whole day! until to the extend too stress need relax abit i go wack 1 game of lol and sleep! nxt day wake up flip thru 1 more time and confidently wack the paper like a boss! so now see the diffrence! haha. Gona Graduate soon man! come to think of it time passes damn fast la. so fast my jr darling reservist 2 weeks over le Da Fark shock tio. now already going to a end of feb very fast man!

so now nxt thing is a good news tat is yea she read my blog! finally today she reply me in fb! all along i thought she been ignoring me or avoiding me but i am wrong she explain to me le so i accpect her answer ok! haiz she is so poor thing :( need use interent need go her frien house or need post smth on fb she need ask her frien help her do it i am writing all this because i can feel her pain and all everything! after hearing it from her i feel damn sad somehow from a happyboi instantly become sadboi jus duno why :( and i guess she quarrel with her bf and tat bf of hers basically duno how to ji tong go make her happy back again and bring her back to his house jus throw her at her own house. can feel tat her background is already soo sooo.. and yet this bf duno how takecare of her i see liao jus so angry lor even though i dont have the rights to be angry ya but is jus soooooooo..... arrr i duno wad to say :(( and i saw this sentence of her in facebook its goes like this " They wanted me to be happy,black faces were a taboo! They pin high hopes on me, i didnt want to disapoint them so i created tis mask put it on and now i am smiling everyday and saying everyday is a sunshine". so after reading it i ask myself so it means everytime i get to meet u u are showing me ur bright side  ur smile and everything jus bec u dont wan disapoint me but after i send u home its all totally different :( so all along u are not happy! i always ask u to smile for me so basically u is jus dont wan disapoint me so u put on the invisble fake mask and smile for me haizz.. i am so wrong le.. i thought u were really happy.. even johnny also ask me how are u are u fine etc i jus always tell him i guess she is not doing good.. but anyway wait till i am free after my exams or smth bring u go out k! as i told u jus now u need help jus ring me my number u already have! i am more den willing to help out! wat i can do de i will do! but pls dont ask me go talk to ur bf tell him wad to do this and that cos thats the worst thing i will do for u cos i am going to shoot him down with scartic words a mummy's boy is like this de they need someone to tell them to do this and that den they will do if not u wont see them doing it yes they will ya miracle man! i am not trying to suan him or anything i am jus speaking facts. enuff of all this le type le sad yet angry too.. gona end here le now 4am. nights!

希 望 你 能 每 天 开 开 心 心 的 过 日 子  :<

Uh Uh Siol

Hi lolololo i am back with goood newssssssss ok it goes like this i still rembr my dad told me to pick 4 numbers for him on my actual bdae so he can buy 4d haha so yea pick ok but nvr strike diao -.- so again he told me pick for him again tis time really came out first prize 6341 so real till my dad smile until his jaws can drop lol basically whole family happy la haha i am the lucky son in the family hehex always he buy my IC n0. or he ask me jus pick 4 numbers for him cos i gt once pick 4 numbers for my mum aunt frien really strike lololo from there tat aunty love me alot rofl see me always buy me smth to eat or drink she too ai si wo le!! haha jr so smart can guess hw much my dad strike hmm is cfm le gt 5 digit my dad only told me ya gt 5 digits wooo sexy duno hw much he gona giv me hehehex i am his lucky star muahahx! damn happy laaaa lolololo at the same time fcuk garena decay my elo after nvr touching ranked for 1month -25 instant -.- sibei pain man u know.. den end up play play lose win lose lose lose lose LOL shag! but its ok elo giv u la huh i am too happy now lol!

ok time to talk few days ago the thing k yea basically wack hard for my exam yea i did good i guess so proud of myself self-praise even LOL damn byl but nvm who cares rofl so ya time for the sad thing iss....actually also u know who la huh i always talking abt de duno wad happen to her seems mia for 1 week :( did i terror her i wonther sometimes after letting her see my blog will she get terror or will she feel different after reading it.. or maybe come to worse avoid me! :( fml jus wan to ask how are u and all or anything i can help u.. but it seems u are not even replying me haizzz now wat did i doooo did i write smth wrong in my blog or did i do smth to make u feel wierd -.- i gt no freaking idea man.. johnny said smth ask me go ur house find u den bring u out for coffee or smth cos he saw the wat very lonely at the fb i am like Da fcuk! i also duno where she stay duno how to contact her also no hp.. talk to her fb leave offline msg also tio ignore wat the shitx! so u tell me la how to find or contact her.. i also wan to bring her out for coffee or dinner or wadever it is to make her feel happy.. sadly i am not given the chance hais suan le la... always talk abt her limbei become ammuu emo boi91.. da fcuk :(( positive positive thinking! rawr.. gona end here le 4.30am now!

Focus!

All i need now is to focus on my friday exam! which is jus 1 day more to go so means i shall forget all those silly dumb things running in my head which i wont type it out here cos is jus sooo plain dumb i swear! but oh well shall forget all this and focus on my revise hell freaking lots of words to remeber which i am so bad at it :( i can only do maths like a boss without having fear for it while else this coming test is all words 2 modules exam all words WTF! haiss gona start wacking on it hard soon rather den always emo duno wad to do think negative which i always telling ppl pls be positive but yet i am not doing it WTS man... damn fail me fml but its ok i know i can handle myself de i do not need anyone to help me! jus gotta stand right up myself and be strong.. works towards my goal and shall not disapoint those ppl who all along wanted me to study hard! need to force everything into my freaking small brain! which i think i need to damn try hard hais sure my head gona be pain but nvm i think its all worth it.. last semester i throw everything out abt lol and focus on my exam + nxt few days was jus wcg and i manage to did it!  i did well for my exams so happy for myself so tis last semester i must do the same.. 2 weeks more to big exam and also my last day in tat sch!

now is 1.40am shall wack 2hours and head to sleep and wake up do the same thing. gonna banned myself from playing lol..haisss...

Real Bad Day

Firstly go sch late den gt suprise test end up lei duno how to do fml ok nvm wor afternoon gt 1 call 6674 7931 i pick up den heard a girl hello the momment i hello back the call ended wtf.. damn real so i thought was "tat someone" but i guess it isn't oh well. so went home play lol and all the games i play all so try hard until my kkj sis i think emo le cos we losing again. so sorry i cant carry.. fk la huh nb ok damn rage i know nvm ba jus a bad day today everything tat i wish for to do on this day all didnt turn up as wat i wanted and it never happen even. and i really mean it never happen :(( haissssss fml la valentine day ar? fk valentine day is more like a vagina day man my frien say it right! today is a damn kan pua JIN UpSad day.

Guess its time for me to do smth tat will make me forget someone :< i did tat to A i guess she hates me now haisss... thinking back wat i did is it wrong or right man is like someone needed u badly and u jus basically dont giv a damn abt her tats how bad it is. now she is back to single yet again.. how i know cos she msg me to tell me for wat i gt no freaking idea why but i dont care also move on with no regrets and nvr look back! why huh is this karma or wat did i do to deserve all this huh lord tell me la why my life like sooo damn bad. haiss duno la going mad i need start control myself zhen zhuo yi dian i know i can do it de. sometimes i feel i regret knowing u i duno why also hope i am wrong ba.. and also wont forget  the movie underworld awakening we watch tgt with Jon u so scaredd till hold my hands thru out the movie haha so cute la u wont forget how scared u were when the wolf jus suddenly appear infront of the screen + its was a 3D show so eventually is a big impact cos ur whole person like did jump abit and i can feel it cos u are jus beside me!!

Hope u enjoy the happy tuesday cos my was pretty bad tuesday i guess.. now is wednesday hope later is a good day ahead after i wake up!    

Forever alone~

Valentine day? yea fcuk yea couples! happy vagina day also loloo quote from jx haha. oh well wat to write let me see hmm didnt saw D online today gt la but pm her she reply 2 to 3 sentences den mia le hmm did smth happen to her? *Xiang Tai Duo le* now is valentine day and i rembr she told me her bf wont bring her out for valentine day blah blah so i said he nvr bring u out u tell me i bring u out lor she keep quiet and giving me the sad face again like the bf is not good to her or like telling me he is not those lovely romantic guy oh well ur choice u pick him he pick u  watever is it u accpected him unhappy with it jus break off so easy save trouble everything. but who am i to tell them wat to do i am jus a friend or should i say stranger to them oh well.. is gona be a forever alone for me on valentine day for the past 3yrs and still counting yea! awesome rite :( jus duno wat to do la exams are coming too i jus finish 1 paper today and sadly i guess i didnt do well cos i revise it for only 2hours and jus bomb go wack the paper like a boss can pass la but not with flying colours so disapointed in myself always telling myself work hard study hard play hard but seems like i play hard only study hard tis part i didnt manage to do it nvm i told myself le gona do my best for tis coming friday paper shall play less on lol and concentrate on my revising.

Today while smoking alone at sch toilet my mind suddenly gt this feel to quit smoking after my last 3 packets of cigg i have at home because it seems like everyone beside me doesn't like me to smoke even there is someone shall not name it can even crush my ciggs and only allow me to smoke 2 ciggs while i am out with her.. damn fierce la she.. machamp can be my wife liao control me of smoking.. den i nvr listen to her she giv me angry face lol. or maybe i shall change to while i am outside only i smoke but when i am at home i dont smoke lol good idea? or still the same rofl. soon ba i will quit and i meant it :D not say for fun de but will do it la come to think of it i save $$ also and healthy. ok duno wat to write le jus wats running in my head i type it out all le. k la going end here le now is 3.05am gona try sleep prepare for sch later.

Wishing my phone ring and is u asking me to bring u out but it will nvr happen ba.. anw since u are not online and if u get to read this happy valentine day dabby chan yu zhi

Church!!

So basically today do wat is woke up saw D msg so she was saying am i coming down to join her for church so yea bathe went out to meet her and roy at kakabo so when i reach le they was quarreling i am wtf so he angry he say i not going church le u go with her den he jus walk off like this! WTFUX sibei real and me saw D face was damn sad like machamp she drop into blackhole hais cb tis guy damn real this how he treat his gf tat time at MRT also like this angry jus walk out of the train and PS her like this tis is so insane normal girls will like maybe i guess r/s is gone break but D still continue with this r/s she damn strong.. so yea as usual tried my best to make her smile and i ask her are u ok? she say i am ok  ya bullshit i knew u are not u inside feeling damn shitty but still u giv me the strong look. so cab to suntec city eat at astons as we was eating she share with me more of herself and currently background suitation haiz hear le i feel damn sad for her the momment she told me her bank acc left hw much i am like ok too real i jus wish to help but i duno where to start from.. all i can say her life is way too messy complicated crazy madness and yet still having this r/s which is also jus so.. haisss..

thx to kkj i manage to clear my qns with her ans basically jus fit it in oh yea i feel much better but still think alot why tis why that.. and ya talking abt tat "someone" really need thx him man now we ohana ppl now feel so much synergy and love towards each other helping one another even dh also agree with me. 1 day i get to meet u i will say thx you to u for making us stronger and yet u gaining nothing muahahx KARMA FALLS ON u and maybe u duno how this word die written on ur face. my darling jr is jus too strong for u to play with muahahhahahahx!!! can never forget wat u did to us de it jus wont vanish in my brain too bad! suck it b1tch! ok enuff of tat someone write liao jus make me feel all hot up!

k gona end here le now is 4.10am..!

plan,put actions in,be decisive and never regret

Yea a day out with D

Wa too real i tell u say meet 7pm kovan mrt end up u know wat time she come 7.40! wa so waited and waited like a sohai so time hit 7.35 so i told myself sua not gona wait going jus head to somerset meet Johnny so after like 5mins later i receive a call wow she say she jus reach kovan mrt and she using a stranger hp omfg sibei real la but lucky she rembr my n0. wa i was so angry disapointed man went i fail to meet her she la telling me in phone have faith in me i will cfm meet u at there 7pm ended up lei i lost faith in her but nvm at least she rembr my hp.. and u know she was late bec she went to buy a high heel at kovan shopping mall WTFUX sibei real cos she wan look taller den me lol end up i am still taller muahahax!!and she was saying sorry sorry. see wat i mean girls only know how to say sorry tats all but nvm la suan le forget and forgive at least she say sorry. tis time she dress up like woman haha not bad but still gt the xmm look rofl! so went to orchard central eat and movie till 11+ send her home and she is very nice cos i pei her walk from mrt to roy home but ended up i no bus.. so she pass me cash to giv me take cab very nice of her but i say dont wan but she insist so k la accpected her nice offer! overall i enjoy my day with her smile like a boss! hehex

And oh yea while eating she say wanted u use my phone play game lol so lended her my phone and she went to click on the watsapp app cos she curious wat is it lol and she say kkj name den she click den when i saw it i quickly take back my phone lol somethings are meant not for her to see de lololo but she keep let me see la den i say later let her see LOL but end up nvr haha! terror me tis D so bad! and so yea she ask for my blog link again hais guess i jus show her ba trust tat she will show no one but herself to read. she said smth why scared to pass me ur blog cos u write abt me rite everything i am like ok wtfux damn real not everything abt u is jus i am here to type wat i feel and rage it out on blog so ya cos i gt no one to talk to but she said u can talk to me lol.. but nvm i prefer typing out so ya. and stop reminding me abt the kiss... today she again remind me of the kiss so bad la she and can still smile at me lol... see la now jus because wan to be taller den me LOL end up gt blisters.. so real lol.. good luck to her valentine compy tml.. i told her before u and roy first round out i and u form new team go in haha sure win lolololo but guess cant ba even if can i think the bf wont like it oh well.. k la going end here le! enjoy reading! hehex

有 时 真 的 不 懂 应 该 放 气 吗 haiss......

All Planned

Yea going to blog wat i did today basically wake up play lol 2 round go out to town for bro's bdae celebearation at novena.. the steamboat suxs ttm will nvr ever go there again too terror wad korean bbq lampa should name as LJ bbq not even worth it. ok so nvm went over to clay quay to have some drink and chit chat so back home le few rounds lol with D. and now i finally know why sometimes i talk to her in lol she nvr reply cos basically roy is seeing her chat so she dont dare reply.. oh well. so tis yy also when going to sleep say good naites! dream of me k! LOL i go learn and apply to D when she going sleep rofl la.. tis time i think i terror D haha. so yea talk to DH for 2 hours wtf real we talking abt the past blah blah sibei real la oh well whats past is past le dont go think of it lor hais but if all this never happen i guess we will get wad we want i guess either 1 sure suceed. but also thx to tat sohai make our bond STRONGER muahhahx too strong till anyone also cant destroy it. tats a good sign too. But if tat sohai nvr appear or pua stun i wont have give up i will go for it tmd jus because he wan everything for himself he 1by1 backstab good la good now u become lonely fcuk yea u deserve it and thx so much for ur 2 headed dragon tis make me now even stronger to see and make friens wisely and to know who is true friends who are hi bye friends b1tch. dont ever think u are too strong or think that u can eat everything for urself cos end up u will still lose KARMA willl fall on u! and u are lucky kkj dont reject or unfriend ppl u are jus lucky she still talks to u or go out with u b1tch! wil nvr forget how terror u are to me in 2011..

D say tis to me everyone thinks tat my r/s is a happy one smth like tat... i reply nvr once i think tat ur r/s is a happy one! she keep quiet. hah but really nvr once i think ur r/s was a happy one i never lie.. alot ppl tell me also he is lucky to have u and met u earlier den us. oh well wat to do. D too strong le everyone looks up on u haha. must respect u i duno how u can stand his attitude and even maintain a cool and calm mind. but oh well nvm when ever i going out with u or wadever i make sure u smile like a crazy girl 24/7 have a smile on ur face :) hah seeing u smile makes me happy too. but i will never forget ur black face u giv to me muahhahax cos is jus so terror la. and priest la priest stop reminding me abt tat kiss we did before i so wan to kill u man. rawr!!! is jus so.. i duno how to say haha.. oh well later gona head out with D for dinner and movie tat is good and i can pass u back ur disc which is been with me for so long like finally i can giv u back!  k gona end here is now 6am in the morning gona sleep le night!    

i am like this

hi i am back making my blog alive so yea basically D ignore my qns so nvm headed to church at 10am service and came back ard 1 so she was online and i str8 away shoot her so u wan continue ignoring my qns to u so she was saying sorry not i wan to ignore is jus she dont wan to go to church tats why i am like wtfux so very hard to reply me i dont feel like going church? so she was saying sry and sry again why girls like to say sorry nothing u can say le beside sorry? so she was saying ok how can i make it up for u and i told her do i look like i need  u to repay me back something jus because u are at the fault she keep quiet. and she ask me go with her 5.30pm service i was like hello i went to church already so she say ok la nxt week go tgt promise. so i reply her in a sacartic way see my mood i happy i go with u i not happy i go alone she was like -.-.. so i told her correct ma u like the feeling ppl ignore u meh when they ask u smth if this is wat u wan den in future i am gona do back to u same let u have the feeling of being ignore. she was like :( so basically i am raging la haha but after awhile i say u are young still gt long way to learn i shall forgive u. she was like arrw haha. sometimes i wonther is it ur bf is controling u tats why u ignore me or i should say girls are random.. but nvm at least i go for u straight when i have smth in mind to clear it.

i am like tis i duno why i dont like to beat around  the bush whom i strong dislike for is either u are in my good book or out simple. but i am glad those in my good book are soo awesome ppl haha. sometimes i dislike tis person shall not name it like to boast around how good is he lanjiao man u think u 1 person clear team ar nb like to talk until wa he 1 person carry team sia our effort all gone la nb dulan lor tis kind of ppl is really BYL den like tat i can boast everyday sia cos basically i am the 1 carry u almost every game like duhh but why i dont see i am boasting around see i am so pro i carry u credits all i take learn to be humble la siao eh i also duno how u got such a awesome gf maybe u lucky la huh. Not the first 1 ppl telling me yea he is lucky to have a gf tat is so good to him i think given with ur such lanjiao attitude proud and easily jealous type the girl long ago d1tch u liao lo. u are jus so lucky jiang zhen de. oh well of cos i am not jealous i am jus writing wad i feel so ya.. now is 2.43am hais i shall try go to sleep later head to sch yet a new week begin!

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so basically played lol till 5+ i jus gt insomia i cant sleep always need wait till 5+ my body clock will be drain up and i be freaking tired so yet played with D roy and her friens wa tis roy is really rage boy we were losing badly den from no where i duno how we manage to win the game so he was raging e way D go jungler den forget take smite and i went support with no cv lol cos last min ma she complain i keep support damn sian blah blah so ok i took the initative to be support and she went jungling cos he lose lane den wad he use heal jus for D cos she do red until wan to die ok so nvm D frien there 1 guy super positive thinking guy i like he very calm jus keep saying can win de and really we won whole game only he keep typing fcuk la keep feed lose liao la surrender etc but i was damn relax only normal game come on no need fking rage plus rage at everyone D can tahan him as a bf i salute her very nice gal also friendly etc at times i wanted to jus tell roy stfu and play wa lao keep type not sian ar like keep blaming her wa fk la all bec of u i lose lane i wasted my heal jus for u and now i lost my lane blah blah bth but i didnt la i jus ignore and play my support. 

so after the game i told her wa u very calm no rage jus keep quiet and play den she saying where got i go RAGE de ok maybe i forget tat she rage before so i say her back i only see u show black face before LOL and she was like wa so evil and counter back me oh yea I KISSED U BEFORE i am like wtfux :( i always wanted to forget all this things to move on and now u jus remind me of that kiss we did before haizzz sometimes wan to forget all the things tat had happen but it jus seems so hard now arr fml but nevermore den less i am also happy la i get to kiss u like wow ok.. sometimes reading some of her sad post but i jus duno wad to comment jus feel sad lor her background is like this her outer side is perfect but her inner side is messy tats wad she said to me and i agree ya but D is a strong gal can overcome all tis by herself omg i am gona learn from her la. positive thinking! everyday is sunshine must keep telling myself .. ok gona head to bed now 2 hours of sleep and kick my @ss to sch at 9am.. and yea i pass my test again gt 70 marks happy :) play hard work hard study hard fuck hard learn hard!

you shi wo de tou nao qian dou shi ni de ying zhi  :(