Stress week..

So yea recently knew a nice lady that is a teacher wow from jr de haha she is 23 woo hawt ttm lol! can be my jie jie liao lololo very friendly sociable lady and emotional too lol dance salsa de sioll omg sure damn imba hot! lololo. ok so basically my life beeen hmm how should i said i guess is fine ba jus too stress up alot things to study need memorise fcuk 1 module tat i hate learn nothing for the past 6months -.- but haiz no choice need to study still exam coming le.. jus 4 more days left to my exam i can do it de xian ku hou tian! i can endure de after exam i am gona play hard party hard etc. and jr promise me to buy me smth from taiwan if i score well woo challenge accpected.jpg! so i shall not disapoint myself and him and other as well really need work extra extra hard...

Wo yi lu lai zhuo de xuan zhe wo chong lai bu ho hui i made the right choice my decision my actions never regret. 

If you love someone because you think he or she is really gorgeous then it's not love 

it's “Infatuation” 

If you love someone because you think you shouldn’t leave him/ her because other think that you shouldn’t then it's not love 

it's “Compromise” 

If you love someone because you think that you cannot live without his/her touch then it's not love 

it's "Lust"

If you love someone because you have been kissed by him/her then it’s not love

it’s “Inferiority Complex” 

If you love someone because you cannot leave him/her thinking that it would hurt his/her feelings then it’s not love 

it's “Charity” !!

If you love someone because you share everything with him/her then it’s not love 

it’s “Friendship” !!

But if you feel the pain of the other person more then him/her even when he/she is stable and you cry for him/her 

that’s "LOVE" 

If you get attracted to other people but stay with him/her without any regrets

that’s "LOVE" 

If you let him/her go knowing that he has to go but doesn’t want to 

that’s "LOVE"

kkj sis share with me de wow awesome! 

Ohana ppl is love

Whenever i am down sad gt problems need help Ohana ppl jr kkj sis will be there for me so chated with jr bro he told me this and that yup i find it true put urself in my shoes fcuk if i were to do tat to u how will u feel i guess u wont get to feel it cos i wont do it u are jus lucky i can control myself well given others i think long ago 1 shot jus giv u a blow right in ur fking face and giv u knock out on the spot cry go reflect on ur actions on wat u have done. i guess u havent go thru the hardway u nvr fall hard before no one did tat to u before but nvm till 1 day someone will eventually down u like a boss make sure u fall hard and stand up on ur 2 feets alone by urself den from there u will learn.

so chated with kkj sis she guide me along tis and everything after chating with her i feel ok le kkj sis jiu shi kkj sis my forever role model as a girl! i respect her alot she can do alot things which mostly of the girls cant do it this is her she is jus so different from others girls tat i have known so far.

My Last Chesss move has been decided

Basically wad i do is today ring dabby k promise her bring her out so k brought her out today bring her go eat later johnny tag along at 5+ so we went kakaboo to play seeing u happy enjoying urself i am happy too u make me smile. ok so after playing at kakaboo headed over to PS for dinner as we was eating halfway she say tis sentence fking randomly i swear " Dickson do u still like me?" ok i heard le i was blur shock i duno wad to reply so i jus quickly change topic i wanted to dodqe tat qns immediately i very stun at the momment and awkward so yea manage to did it. cos is so freaking wtf when u suddenly say it out like randomly without thinking Johnny is with us he is not invisible de.  ok nvm so she suggested to go johnnny places to stay over night and play with his dogs so ok at first i thinking i all along afraid of dogs and cats going his house i would be terror ttm plus he gt husky so huge tat i can never imagine and i dont dare to but jus for D and to accompany her i agree to it and went to johnny house with her.

ok so halfway while reaching his house i msg roy ur gf and me going johnny house now stay over night the reason why i did it because jus ytd ago he came to confront me in my face to talk about the matter btw her and himself telling me all along i am retarded to listen to her and without knowing the story of it ok i ask him so now because of u 2 going break off u wan blame me? This was the impression i have on him tat he wanted to blame everything on me but i am wrong so wrong till i gt no words to say because after he told me so much tat i didnt know abt which D didnt tell me before abt him always jus telling me her side story and his story of a good side nvr once she told me k so i was blindly 1 sided all along so i told myself ok fk all this i am gona be netural plus my dad knows all his relative and his family everything i dont wan because of this i make and enemy ok so nvm i apologise to him i respect him for who is he is everything u told me u could giv to D i guess i cant do it or should i say i can but not as much power u have tat u can scarfice for her and with ur mum siding u all along which ever u wan she jus give and ur strong relatives u have to support u all the way in wadever troubles u have first 1 i always see is ur relatives comments to cheer u up. ur ego ur pride u can scarfice for her win already u jus over take me by 1 level ahead of me.

ok so i was saying i msg roy but i didnt know roy went to msg her str9 and is like u freaking sabo me but nvm so she ask me while walking to johnny house why u tell roy all this i am like da fark hey u are his gf why u need to scared of ur whereabouts u go where all doesnt he should know and i can feel u are damn scared to let him know where are u and all so she ask me wad i really msg to roy from here on i already dont like the idea u asking me tis and that is like u questioning me i jus dont like the idea so ya and i jus rafly tell her this and then and i jus put on my earpiece and blast the music and walk infront of them and to be honest actually from the start already dont feel confortable with u i jus choose to ignore it but after the kakaboo i told myself i did my part to make u smile so while walking to PS i already took out my earpiece and listen all the way while we were walking to PS and i leave johnny to handle u. Same thing i did also went was going to johnny house i guess my actions are too obvious le my tail is easily catch JR Darling says it correctly i am easily tio catch de my actions i do everything is damn obvious is because why u know i dont like to alibaba play stun i do things str9 foward jus same like i wan confront u i gt qns to ask u or tell u i will go right str8 for u without fail i wont keep it to myself tats me... i prefer things to be settle it immediately.

k so i guess my tail gt catch by u cos u said tis to me in the lift while going up to johnny place dickson pls dont ignore me and talk to me i am like ok i guess u spoted me le so ok i shall face it and tell myself ok i shall face it and talk to u den be normal again.. so ya went to johnny house saw the husky saw the female and male dog i gt freak out my whole person shiver like i eaten drugs the momment they came str8 for me i was so terrify u will nvr know wat the feeling is jus sooo like machamp i saw a ghost really tats how bad it is. ok so johnny say smth like joking la i know touch my dog fur or u are a pussy can go become a girl so i jus entertain u all ya ok fk i am a pussy i go become a girl now.. so nvm i take it as johnny is joking so i am fine with it. so johnny big sister jio for supper go mac eat so ok we tag along so as we was eating and chating johnny big sister is so friendly and HOT sociable and is she 29 damn looks good can communciate so well with me and she say why i so shy cos i am jus like tis whenever i meet a new friend and is a girl i am very shy de i duno why haha and she can see from my impression when ever i am replying her i will look down.. and reply her overall had fun chating with her big sister awesome! and when i look at D face expression u know wats the next think up in my mind she dont like the feeling of this u know why because she is attention seeker and all along i been chating with the big sister and johnny while D sat there quietly not talking and giving some sort of wierd impression to the big sister why i can say tis is because when ever i look into the big sister eyes while she is talking i can see her eyes are looking at D sometimes for wat reason i duno but i can feel that she knows D doesnt like the feeling of it because our attention all was focus on the big sister i can 100% bet on this without doubts the big sisters knows it she is some freaking smart @ss girl tat study duno wad thing now i forget wad it is smth like doctoary etc.. damn high education de tats all i know. ok so she teach me how to cure this phobia not totally really works but she told me to feed the husky the big bone and i manage to do it with my self confidence and thx to her giving me support i can do it and i did it the first time in my life i get so close to a husky after all along i am so fear of them come to think of it they wont bite me so i shouldnt mind but the problem is i mind.. but nvm pass this stage not bad le.. 

ok so ard 4 we go up to johnny balcony so he brought the female dog along ok so while i was taking my cigg to smoke D jus keep giving me attitude dont like me smoke all along from the time i meet her till now whenever i take out my cigg she will kp me rant at me scold me beat me threaten me crush my cigg throw my cigg away etc plus the dog came near to me so as u know i am jus too terrify of dogs haiz so i stand on the chair at johnny balacony D shot me again u pussy la can really go be a girl in a angry tone i am like ok real tats when i started to get abit angri ok so nvm. johnny can see my expression le he told me cool down so ok i dont wan make bad impression to him like first time go his house i giv attitude all bad impression so i didnt show anything i keep quiet continue smoking. so ard 5+ all keep quiet nothing to do so i shot tis qns to johnny and before i shot tat qns to him i told D already i dont mean anything to u so ok i say this to johnny " If u are my girlfriend i am the boyfriend i say i going my friend is a girl house to stay randomly wat is ur answer frankly speaking u can giv me" so D immediately response " Oh so u are siding roy now isit" i told her to stfu and ask johnny answer so johnny response is he wont like the idea of going ppl house stay cos why u are my BF would u like the idea of me going a girl friend house to stay will u mind obvious answer is a YES without doubts duhh. ok so i said well said. so i saw D expression piss not happy with me le so i was smoking and she kp again say giv me the pack of ciggs and ok i gave it to her and she freaking go do it on purpose open the cigg box and let air go in as u know cigg air once go in u smoke = can throw away u feel nothing in it nvm wor i still very relax but tis is the momment tat is too real she take a metal piece and jus THROW AT ME! u know how pain it is or not U FKING KNOW OR NOT u hurt me alot. from there i told myself ok enuff of all this shitx Johnny saw tat he gave me the impression was ok very real he knows tis time i am super pissed. Firstly Discriminate me pussy i can go become a girl,2ndly u open my cigg box let air go in on purpose,3rdly u throw the metal thing on me with ur force and the impact on me was hard and i feel the pain from there onwards i wanted to tell u infront of johnny in ur face to make u xia suay i didnt i hold everything u know or not the feeling inside was way tooo undescriable..

i treat u so good all along u wan wat eat wat i ok go along with it price hw much i didnt really bother as long as u are happy i am ok with it but i jus couldnt take  it u throw the piece of metal thing at me jus because u are pissed angry infront of johnny u know how sad i am or not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u will never know. i gave my best to u i trust u i gave u my blog i always try to make u happy i bring u go out i supported u alot all along when u only told me 1 sided story i though u was right royston is a bad guy i beileve i was blinded by tis thing call "love" all this i did is all jus for u to make u smile now wad i get is wad hurt FCUK u always say i am same as ur bf fk u are totally wrong i have my good and bad points he has his u can nvr put me and him tgt is 2 different thing u now or not sadly u duno i guess u know WHY from wat i see now u are Self-Centered selfish attention seeker ur ego and pride u hold it more high den i expected u only care abt urself only u nvr put urself in my shoe u NEVER i swear u NEVER!!!!! same for ur BF u never put urself in his shoes NEVER once u did it i am so freaking disapointed in ur actions and all tat u have done. Dabby Chan Yu Zhi i really regreted the first kiss i really zhen de it make me become to this state now and ur BF 2 times throw u alone to me i did my part to care for u and also to make u happy i really did my part u will know it best. i am offically sad ttm my heart so sorrow now i swear really way too hurting u did tat to me all i get is nothing hurt after doing so much nice things to u wad i get HURT FCUK i fall too deep le tis time gone case liao tis time really gone and i meant it i should have forgotten u in my mind i should jus disappear myself from u to forget abt u everything single thing tat i did i will remove and delete it from my brain and treat it as it didnt happen at all. i am typing tis and controling my emotions is really too hurting i swear i can break down now like mad jus because of u! Good luck to u in wadever u do and all ur r/s everything all the best. took me 2 hours+ to write all this up. D ur msg u send to me about ur apology is too late le really too late i am hurt way too deep again i fall into the fking blackhole already everything is gone.

And kkj sis i should have listen to u i deserve someone better way better tat will appreaciate me in all the things tat i did u told me before despite how bad her background is i still like her and now since i know everything le taken for granted le.

wo zhen de hen hou hui ren si ni :(

my fault huh?

ok first thing i came back was to rest cos last night i couldn't sleep for some reason i duno why also damn real till i stay awake till morning 8+ and bathe went to sch tats was how bad my insomina was.. so came home and sleep woke up at 7+ talk to D awhile on fb tellling her tml coming over to her house to bring her out to eat and do some things tat will make her smile.. so she said ok and i told her tat tis time u wan giv me black face rage at me beat me rant ur troubles to me all also can.. i wont mind a singe bit.. so yea ok talking finish to D le 

i go play lol and first thing i online Shana pm me ask me go custom with her check my valentine vayne skin cos she bought for me for wat i got no idea from wat she told me was wanted to giv me a surprise..i gt shock of cos and i thx her alot. so nxt thing we went in game her frien use nid solo mid ap nid somemore troll me all along i think nid ap is shitx beside throwing spear he cant do shitx damn paper somemore + we actually can win but shana lag last engage she did nth and die ok so nvm lose ok i accpect defeat! so nxt game with lehjon me jiexiang and her 4 ppl we go lose again man and is bec of wat u know why cos she fking rage quit bec she lose to the vayne nvm den i go say her abit she not happy she rage quit from a win game become a lose and i try so hard and up i lose tis time the momment i click the defeat button i am all so fired up i go the Ohana skype chat gave her a blast and told her this and that u freaking wan to play with me dont giv me ur shitty attitude i dont giv a fcuk u are a girl with PMS on or wadever etc i hate ppl rage quit jus bec u cant tahan the words tat i said to u in game and u jus rage quit make me lose? tis 1 i lose until not happy i really meant it tats why i could rage on the ohana skype and u basically still shoot me and think u are totally not in the wrong and telling my ohana ppl u buy me skin and my mindset is all abt winning and u sort of regret buying me the skin? 

HELLO i didnt even freaking beg u to buy me the skin or priest la priest i gt so poor to need u get me the skin meh i can be freaking scaratic if i am totally piss with u jus pass my limit damit.. so freaking dulan man so i was saying GIV U BACK LA she say no need blah blah and what i wont play with u anymore in normal game or ranked. Hey fcuk if i was so heartless to bo chup u i would have join chawy game tgt with DH all i wouldn't even giv a damn shit abt ur exsist online. and in return all now i get is wat shitx u saying my mindset is win win win only yes of cos i wan to win i play hard work hard in wadever i do i wan to excel in it i not waste my freaking time to troll and play man damit i already trying hard to carry and yes i complain abit but u do not need to the extend rage quit and make me and my friens lose the game for nothing u know how angry i was OR NOT U WILL NEVER KNOW COS U GIRLS THINKING ARE ALWAYS NEGATIVE u will never improve ur skills will still remain the same u will never learn PHUCK. i treated u like a ohana ppl play game ask u along to game and have fun with us end up lei this wat i get isit. u scolded my frien jiexiang like nobody business asking him to shutup all when he was always only trying to joke with me like he gona report me but tats was jus only joking u take it so serious till u ask him to stfu? u are lucky man jiexiang is a calm and relax guy if not long ago u get fuck by him hard too.. Real la why all this even happen man yes i know is jus a normal game and ya i take it seriously but i dont expect u to giv such a ragey attitude man.. haiz ok la huh my fault i shouldnt even rage abt tat game should drop it.. now causes u to leave the ohana skype chat.. i swallow everything down ba i shall go reflect on myself always to rember myself not to treat girls so harsh and my words are always so hurting,scaratic and tis is jus me i gt things to say to u i will thrash things out str8 foward without waiting.. thx for making me smoke 4 ciggs in 10mins tats was how stress ,piss, angry the momment i saw u rage quit! so to cool down i smoke! so now i guess for me to quit smoking is hard haizzz.. 12 more days to my big exam hope i can do well for it. shall play less soon again  phcuk everything tat had happen today.... really hate it... nan dao zhen de si wo de cuo? :(

Standing right next to u

Ok now i gt 2 weeks from nows is my big exam! 5march and 7march so tis week is basically i gona relax abit play and study! after tis week over the follow week i will wack hard on my books! i wan to score! for my exam! and i am proud to say i gt back my results today for the friday test!! gt 89 marks! oh my gawd! so happy la my hardwork really pay off muahhahahax so happy and my elo is back to 1.6k :D work hard play hard weee.. and wat do i meant by if u dont work hard u wont see the results i gt 1 frien nxt day test same as me he was playing PS3 throught the night and nxt day go wack the test rofl he study for 2 hours only.. and he fail lol need retest.. while else me is study whole day! until to the extend too stress need relax abit i go wack 1 game of lol and sleep! nxt day wake up flip thru 1 more time and confidently wack the paper like a boss! so now see the diffrence! haha. Gona Graduate soon man! come to think of it time passes damn fast la. so fast my jr darling reservist 2 weeks over le Da Fark shock tio. now already going to a end of feb very fast man!

so now nxt thing is a good news tat is yea she read my blog! finally today she reply me in fb! all along i thought she been ignoring me or avoiding me but i am wrong she explain to me le so i accpect her answer ok! haiz she is so poor thing :( need use interent need go her frien house or need post smth on fb she need ask her frien help her do it i am writing all this because i can feel her pain and all everything! after hearing it from her i feel damn sad somehow from a happyboi instantly become sadboi jus duno why :( and i guess she quarrel with her bf and tat bf of hers basically duno how to ji tong go make her happy back again and bring her back to his house jus throw her at her own house. can feel tat her background is already soo sooo.. and yet this bf duno how takecare of her i see liao jus so angry lor even though i dont have the rights to be angry ya but is jus soooooooo..... arrr i duno wad to say :(( and i saw this sentence of her in facebook its goes like this " They wanted me to be happy,black faces were a taboo! They pin high hopes on me, i didnt want to disapoint them so i created tis mask put it on and now i am smiling everyday and saying everyday is a sunshine". so after reading it i ask myself so it means everytime i get to meet u u are showing me ur bright side  ur smile and everything jus bec u dont wan disapoint me but after i send u home its all totally different :( so all along u are not happy! i always ask u to smile for me so basically u is jus dont wan disapoint me so u put on the invisble fake mask and smile for me haizz.. i am so wrong le.. i thought u were really happy.. even johnny also ask me how are u are u fine etc i jus always tell him i guess she is not doing good.. but anyway wait till i am free after my exams or smth bring u go out k! as i told u jus now u need help jus ring me my number u already have! i am more den willing to help out! wat i can do de i will do! but pls dont ask me go talk to ur bf tell him wad to do this and that cos thats the worst thing i will do for u cos i am going to shoot him down with scartic words a mummy's boy is like this de they need someone to tell them to do this and that den they will do if not u wont see them doing it yes they will ya miracle man! i am not trying to suan him or anything i am jus speaking facts. enuff of all this le type le sad yet angry too.. gona end here le now 4am. nights!

希 望 你 能 每 天 开 开 心 心 的 过 日 子  :<

Uh Uh Siol

Hi lolololo i am back with goood newssssssss ok it goes like this i still rembr my dad told me to pick 4 numbers for him on my actual bdae so he can buy 4d haha so yea pick ok but nvr strike diao -.- so again he told me pick for him again tis time really came out first prize 6341 so real till my dad smile until his jaws can drop lol basically whole family happy la haha i am the lucky son in the family hehex always he buy my IC n0. or he ask me jus pick 4 numbers for him cos i gt once pick 4 numbers for my mum aunt frien really strike lololo from there tat aunty love me alot rofl see me always buy me smth to eat or drink she too ai si wo le!! haha jr so smart can guess hw much my dad strike hmm is cfm le gt 5 digit my dad only told me ya gt 5 digits wooo sexy duno hw much he gona giv me hehehex i am his lucky star muahahx! damn happy laaaa lolololo at the same time fcuk garena decay my elo after nvr touching ranked for 1month -25 instant -.- sibei pain man u know.. den end up play play lose win lose lose lose lose LOL shag! but its ok elo giv u la huh i am too happy now lol!

ok time to talk few days ago the thing k yea basically wack hard for my exam yea i did good i guess so proud of myself self-praise even LOL damn byl but nvm who cares rofl so ya time for the sad thing iss....actually also u know who la huh i always talking abt de duno wad happen to her seems mia for 1 week :( did i terror her i wonther sometimes after letting her see my blog will she get terror or will she feel different after reading it.. or maybe come to worse avoid me! :( fml jus wan to ask how are u and all or anything i can help u.. but it seems u are not even replying me haizzz now wat did i doooo did i write smth wrong in my blog or did i do smth to make u feel wierd -.- i gt no freaking idea man.. johnny said smth ask me go ur house find u den bring u out for coffee or smth cos he saw the wat very lonely at the fb i am like Da fcuk! i also duno where she stay duno how to contact her also no hp.. talk to her fb leave offline msg also tio ignore wat the shitx! so u tell me la how to find or contact her.. i also wan to bring her out for coffee or dinner or wadever it is to make her feel happy.. sadly i am not given the chance hais suan le la... always talk abt her limbei become ammuu emo boi91.. da fcuk :(( positive positive thinking! rawr.. gona end here le 4.30am now!

Focus!

All i need now is to focus on my friday exam! which is jus 1 day more to go so means i shall forget all those silly dumb things running in my head which i wont type it out here cos is jus sooo plain dumb i swear! but oh well shall forget all this and focus on my revise hell freaking lots of words to remeber which i am so bad at it :( i can only do maths like a boss without having fear for it while else this coming test is all words 2 modules exam all words WTF! haiss gona start wacking on it hard soon rather den always emo duno wad to do think negative which i always telling ppl pls be positive but yet i am not doing it WTS man... damn fail me fml but its ok i know i can handle myself de i do not need anyone to help me! jus gotta stand right up myself and be strong.. works towards my goal and shall not disapoint those ppl who all along wanted me to study hard! need to force everything into my freaking small brain! which i think i need to damn try hard hais sure my head gona be pain but nvm i think its all worth it.. last semester i throw everything out abt lol and focus on my exam + nxt few days was jus wcg and i manage to did it!  i did well for my exams so happy for myself so tis last semester i must do the same.. 2 weeks more to big exam and also my last day in tat sch!

now is 1.40am shall wack 2hours and head to sleep and wake up do the same thing. gonna banned myself from playing lol..haisss...

Real Bad Day

Firstly go sch late den gt suprise test end up lei duno how to do fml ok nvm wor afternoon gt 1 call 6674 7931 i pick up den heard a girl hello the momment i hello back the call ended wtf.. damn real so i thought was "tat someone" but i guess it isn't oh well. so went home play lol and all the games i play all so try hard until my kkj sis i think emo le cos we losing again. so sorry i cant carry.. fk la huh nb ok damn rage i know nvm ba jus a bad day today everything tat i wish for to do on this day all didnt turn up as wat i wanted and it never happen even. and i really mean it never happen :(( haissssss fml la valentine day ar? fk valentine day is more like a vagina day man my frien say it right! today is a damn kan pua JIN UpSad day.

Guess its time for me to do smth tat will make me forget someone :< i did tat to A i guess she hates me now haisss... thinking back wat i did is it wrong or right man is like someone needed u badly and u jus basically dont giv a damn abt her tats how bad it is. now she is back to single yet again.. how i know cos she msg me to tell me for wat i gt no freaking idea why but i dont care also move on with no regrets and nvr look back! why huh is this karma or wat did i do to deserve all this huh lord tell me la why my life like sooo damn bad. haiss duno la going mad i need start control myself zhen zhuo yi dian i know i can do it de. sometimes i feel i regret knowing u i duno why also hope i am wrong ba.. and also wont forget  the movie underworld awakening we watch tgt with Jon u so scaredd till hold my hands thru out the movie haha so cute la u wont forget how scared u were when the wolf jus suddenly appear infront of the screen + its was a 3D show so eventually is a big impact cos ur whole person like did jump abit and i can feel it cos u are jus beside me!!

Hope u enjoy the happy tuesday cos my was pretty bad tuesday i guess.. now is wednesday hope later is a good day ahead after i wake up!    

Forever alone~

Valentine day? yea fcuk yea couples! happy vagina day also loloo quote from jx haha. oh well wat to write let me see hmm didnt saw D online today gt la but pm her she reply 2 to 3 sentences den mia le hmm did smth happen to her? *Xiang Tai Duo le* now is valentine day and i rembr she told me her bf wont bring her out for valentine day blah blah so i said he nvr bring u out u tell me i bring u out lor she keep quiet and giving me the sad face again like the bf is not good to her or like telling me he is not those lovely romantic guy oh well ur choice u pick him he pick u  watever is it u accpected him unhappy with it jus break off so easy save trouble everything. but who am i to tell them wat to do i am jus a friend or should i say stranger to them oh well.. is gona be a forever alone for me on valentine day for the past 3yrs and still counting yea! awesome rite :( jus duno wat to do la exams are coming too i jus finish 1 paper today and sadly i guess i didnt do well cos i revise it for only 2hours and jus bomb go wack the paper like a boss can pass la but not with flying colours so disapointed in myself always telling myself work hard study hard play hard but seems like i play hard only study hard tis part i didnt manage to do it nvm i told myself le gona do my best for tis coming friday paper shall play less on lol and concentrate on my revising.

Today while smoking alone at sch toilet my mind suddenly gt this feel to quit smoking after my last 3 packets of cigg i have at home because it seems like everyone beside me doesn't like me to smoke even there is someone shall not name it can even crush my ciggs and only allow me to smoke 2 ciggs while i am out with her.. damn fierce la she.. machamp can be my wife liao control me of smoking.. den i nvr listen to her she giv me angry face lol. or maybe i shall change to while i am outside only i smoke but when i am at home i dont smoke lol good idea? or still the same rofl. soon ba i will quit and i meant it :D not say for fun de but will do it la come to think of it i save $$ also and healthy. ok duno wat to write le jus wats running in my head i type it out all le. k la going end here le now is 3.05am gona try sleep prepare for sch later.

Wishing my phone ring and is u asking me to bring u out but it will nvr happen ba.. anw since u are not online and if u get to read this happy valentine day dabby chan yu zhi

Church!!

So basically today do wat is woke up saw D msg so she was saying am i coming down to join her for church so yea bathe went out to meet her and roy at kakabo so when i reach le they was quarreling i am wtf so he angry he say i not going church le u go with her den he jus walk off like this! WTFUX sibei real and me saw D face was damn sad like machamp she drop into blackhole hais cb tis guy damn real this how he treat his gf tat time at MRT also like this angry jus walk out of the train and PS her like this tis is so insane normal girls will like maybe i guess r/s is gone break but D still continue with this r/s she damn strong.. so yea as usual tried my best to make her smile and i ask her are u ok? she say i am ok  ya bullshit i knew u are not u inside feeling damn shitty but still u giv me the strong look. so cab to suntec city eat at astons as we was eating she share with me more of herself and currently background suitation haiz hear le i feel damn sad for her the momment she told me her bank acc left hw much i am like ok too real i jus wish to help but i duno where to start from.. all i can say her life is way too messy complicated crazy madness and yet still having this r/s which is also jus so.. haisss..

thx to kkj i manage to clear my qns with her ans basically jus fit it in oh yea i feel much better but still think alot why tis why that.. and ya talking abt tat "someone" really need thx him man now we ohana ppl now feel so much synergy and love towards each other helping one another even dh also agree with me. 1 day i get to meet u i will say thx you to u for making us stronger and yet u gaining nothing muahahx KARMA FALLS ON u and maybe u duno how this word die written on ur face. my darling jr is jus too strong for u to play with muahahhahahahx!!! can never forget wat u did to us de it jus wont vanish in my brain too bad! suck it b1tch! ok enuff of tat someone write liao jus make me feel all hot up!

k gona end here le now is 4.10am..!

plan,put actions in,be decisive and never regret

Yea a day out with D

Wa too real i tell u say meet 7pm kovan mrt end up u know wat time she come 7.40! wa so waited and waited like a sohai so time hit 7.35 so i told myself sua not gona wait going jus head to somerset meet Johnny so after like 5mins later i receive a call wow she say she jus reach kovan mrt and she using a stranger hp omfg sibei real la but lucky she rembr my n0. wa i was so angry disapointed man went i fail to meet her she la telling me in phone have faith in me i will cfm meet u at there 7pm ended up lei i lost faith in her but nvm at least she rembr my hp.. and u know she was late bec she went to buy a high heel at kovan shopping mall WTFUX sibei real cos she wan look taller den me lol end up i am still taller muahahax!!and she was saying sorry sorry. see wat i mean girls only know how to say sorry tats all but nvm la suan le forget and forgive at least she say sorry. tis time she dress up like woman haha not bad but still gt the xmm look rofl! so went to orchard central eat and movie till 11+ send her home and she is very nice cos i pei her walk from mrt to roy home but ended up i no bus.. so she pass me cash to giv me take cab very nice of her but i say dont wan but she insist so k la accpected her nice offer! overall i enjoy my day with her smile like a boss! hehex

And oh yea while eating she say wanted u use my phone play game lol so lended her my phone and she went to click on the watsapp app cos she curious wat is it lol and she say kkj name den she click den when i saw it i quickly take back my phone lol somethings are meant not for her to see de lololo but she keep let me see la den i say later let her see LOL but end up nvr haha! terror me tis D so bad! and so yea she ask for my blog link again hais guess i jus show her ba trust tat she will show no one but herself to read. she said smth why scared to pass me ur blog cos u write abt me rite everything i am like ok wtfux damn real not everything abt u is jus i am here to type wat i feel and rage it out on blog so ya cos i gt no one to talk to but she said u can talk to me lol.. but nvm i prefer typing out so ya. and stop reminding me abt the kiss... today she again remind me of the kiss so bad la she and can still smile at me lol... see la now jus because wan to be taller den me LOL end up gt blisters.. so real lol.. good luck to her valentine compy tml.. i told her before u and roy first round out i and u form new team go in haha sure win lolololo but guess cant ba even if can i think the bf wont like it oh well.. k la going end here le! enjoy reading! hehex

有 时 真 的 不 懂 应 该 放 气 吗 haiss......

All Planned

Yea going to blog wat i did today basically wake up play lol 2 round go out to town for bro's bdae celebearation at novena.. the steamboat suxs ttm will nvr ever go there again too terror wad korean bbq lampa should name as LJ bbq not even worth it. ok so nvm went over to clay quay to have some drink and chit chat so back home le few rounds lol with D. and now i finally know why sometimes i talk to her in lol she nvr reply cos basically roy is seeing her chat so she dont dare reply.. oh well. so tis yy also when going to sleep say good naites! dream of me k! LOL i go learn and apply to D when she going sleep rofl la.. tis time i think i terror D haha. so yea talk to DH for 2 hours wtf real we talking abt the past blah blah sibei real la oh well whats past is past le dont go think of it lor hais but if all this never happen i guess we will get wad we want i guess either 1 sure suceed. but also thx to tat sohai make our bond STRONGER muahhahx too strong till anyone also cant destroy it. tats a good sign too. But if tat sohai nvr appear or pua stun i wont have give up i will go for it tmd jus because he wan everything for himself he 1by1 backstab good la good now u become lonely fcuk yea u deserve it and thx so much for ur 2 headed dragon tis make me now even stronger to see and make friens wisely and to know who is true friends who are hi bye friends b1tch. dont ever think u are too strong or think that u can eat everything for urself cos end up u will still lose KARMA willl fall on u! and u are lucky kkj dont reject or unfriend ppl u are jus lucky she still talks to u or go out with u b1tch! wil nvr forget how terror u are to me in 2011..

D say tis to me everyone thinks tat my r/s is a happy one smth like tat... i reply nvr once i think tat ur r/s is a happy one! she keep quiet. hah but really nvr once i think ur r/s was a happy one i never lie.. alot ppl tell me also he is lucky to have u and met u earlier den us. oh well wat to do. D too strong le everyone looks up on u haha. must respect u i duno how u can stand his attitude and even maintain a cool and calm mind. but oh well nvm when ever i going out with u or wadever i make sure u smile like a crazy girl 24/7 have a smile on ur face :) hah seeing u smile makes me happy too. but i will never forget ur black face u giv to me muahhahax cos is jus so terror la. and priest la priest stop reminding me abt tat kiss we did before i so wan to kill u man. rawr!!! is jus so.. i duno how to say haha.. oh well later gona head out with D for dinner and movie tat is good and i can pass u back ur disc which is been with me for so long like finally i can giv u back!  k gona end here is now 6am in the morning gona sleep le night!    

i am like this

hi i am back making my blog alive so yea basically D ignore my qns so nvm headed to church at 10am service and came back ard 1 so she was online and i str8 away shoot her so u wan continue ignoring my qns to u so she was saying sorry not i wan to ignore is jus she dont wan to go to church tats why i am like wtfux so very hard to reply me i dont feel like going church? so she was saying sry and sry again why girls like to say sorry nothing u can say le beside sorry? so she was saying ok how can i make it up for u and i told her do i look like i need  u to repay me back something jus because u are at the fault she keep quiet. and she ask me go with her 5.30pm service i was like hello i went to church already so she say ok la nxt week go tgt promise. so i reply her in a sacartic way see my mood i happy i go with u i not happy i go alone she was like -.-.. so i told her correct ma u like the feeling ppl ignore u meh when they ask u smth if this is wat u wan den in future i am gona do back to u same let u have the feeling of being ignore. she was like :( so basically i am raging la haha but after awhile i say u are young still gt long way to learn i shall forgive u. she was like arrw haha. sometimes i wonther is it ur bf is controling u tats why u ignore me or i should say girls are random.. but nvm at least i go for u straight when i have smth in mind to clear it.

i am like tis i duno why i dont like to beat around  the bush whom i strong dislike for is either u are in my good book or out simple. but i am glad those in my good book are soo awesome ppl haha. sometimes i dislike tis person shall not name it like to boast around how good is he lanjiao man u think u 1 person clear team ar nb like to talk until wa he 1 person carry team sia our effort all gone la nb dulan lor tis kind of ppl is really BYL den like tat i can boast everyday sia cos basically i am the 1 carry u almost every game like duhh but why i dont see i am boasting around see i am so pro i carry u credits all i take learn to be humble la siao eh i also duno how u got such a awesome gf maybe u lucky la huh. Not the first 1 ppl telling me yea he is lucky to have a gf tat is so good to him i think given with ur such lanjiao attitude proud and easily jealous type the girl long ago d1tch u liao lo. u are jus so lucky jiang zhen de. oh well of cos i am not jealous i am jus writing wad i feel so ya.. now is 2.43am hais i shall try go to sleep later head to sch yet a new week begin!

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so basically played lol till 5+ i jus gt insomia i cant sleep always need wait till 5+ my body clock will be drain up and i be freaking tired so yet played with D roy and her friens wa tis roy is really rage boy we were losing badly den from no where i duno how we manage to win the game so he was raging e way D go jungler den forget take smite and i went support with no cv lol cos last min ma she complain i keep support damn sian blah blah so ok i took the initative to be support and she went jungling cos he lose lane den wad he use heal jus for D cos she do red until wan to die ok so nvm D frien there 1 guy super positive thinking guy i like he very calm jus keep saying can win de and really we won whole game only he keep typing fcuk la keep feed lose liao la surrender etc but i was damn relax only normal game come on no need fking rage plus rage at everyone D can tahan him as a bf i salute her very nice gal also friendly etc at times i wanted to jus tell roy stfu and play wa lao keep type not sian ar like keep blaming her wa fk la all bec of u i lose lane i wasted my heal jus for u and now i lost my lane blah blah bth but i didnt la i jus ignore and play my support. 

so after the game i told her wa u very calm no rage jus keep quiet and play den she saying where got i go RAGE de ok maybe i forget tat she rage before so i say her back i only see u show black face before LOL and she was like wa so evil and counter back me oh yea I KISSED U BEFORE i am like wtfux :( i always wanted to forget all this things to move on and now u jus remind me of that kiss we did before haizzz sometimes wan to forget all the things tat had happen but it jus seems so hard now arr fml but nevermore den less i am also happy la i get to kiss u like wow ok.. sometimes reading some of her sad post but i jus duno wad to comment jus feel sad lor her background is like this her outer side is perfect but her inner side is messy tats wad she said to me and i agree ya but D is a strong gal can overcome all tis by herself omg i am gona learn from her la. positive thinking! everyday is sunshine must keep telling myself .. ok gona head to bed now 2 hours of sleep and kick my @ss to sch at 9am.. and yea i pass my test again gt 70 marks happy :) play hard work hard study hard fuck hard learn hard!

you shi wo de tou nao qian dou shi ni de ying zhi  :(