The day that i parted goodbye...

This gona be a sad or happy post i really duno wat i know now is i decided le i had move my chess le left a 9yrs buddy in jus a blink of an eye oh wait maybe not 1 but 4.. reason he treated me like shitx simple chances given alot le but not now this time round.. too much le this blow he gave me was a huge one i cant take it down to forgive him really if i could i would have done it le.. i am always naiseeee to himmm help him advice him end up what i got nothing but got blame that the girl he like didnt be together with him.. so means all along u saying i trying to kill u make u bang the wall hard isit... hao ren bu hao zhuo huai ren hui bi ciao hao zhuo! so to cut it short he call ren ren to thinks that he can help throught ren ren to help him save this friendhip btw me and him.. till i got to thx jr he did his part le so sorry till i will go on with my decision and leave u. best wishes has been send over le nothing much left to be done... so anything from now on got to do with him that links my name in it wont affect me a single bit really.. so pls jus get the fcuk off from my life ba. i beileve after this incident he will learn alot throughtout his journey that is going to be a long one ahead...so anything from now on got to do with them is not my problem! i angel u all take it for granted now i turn devil le dont blame me really but blame urself... actions jealousy insecure inmature causes this things to be ended like this.. bu shi wo yao de ke shi wo mei you quan zhe le :(


So now come to talk abt my colleague name desiree LOL si ren ren ask me go ask her out for dinner for a sincere apology.. and i did it :( but i new it her answer was like its okay la really u buy me breakfast the most can le no need dinner really then i was like haizz sad kind of disapointed cos i new she will say that but nvm her friend helping me to ask her out with me for lunch or a dinner at least! hope everything goes well.. all along ever since the first day of working in starhub i kind of got a smth i like in her.. and slowly as days goes by damn crazy abt her zzzzzz i know abit kua zhang but still ya.. so always she talks i will try to catch her words not to miss out any.. and seeing her appear infront of me every morning at office i will feel kind of happy le lmao abit siao i know but ya la wat to do..siao over her name keep appearing in my brain echo de siol desireeeeeeeeee desireeeeeeeeeeeee desireeeeeeeeeee desireeeeeeeeeeeeee pcb thx to who mr ren ren !! he spam me is use her name desireeeeeeeeeeeeeee to me :( baddd!! make me so paiseh called sala name when eating lunch knn *facepalm* TTM! desireee even laughing.. super super paiseh max! can! her frien say not easy to chase her and i totally agree haha oh well zhou yi bu suan yi bu weather i get hold of her is another thing le hah!

k gona end here le i bth liao 1 step more to drop into black hole lastly fk u all man for giving me so many lj's

Its easy to say..

Finally free to blog hmm somethings running in my mind! its easy to say but weather able to do it or not it's another thing.. hopefully i am able to slowly get rid of it :< i know is not easy but i will try my best to not to disapoint my love ones espically my mum.. she is super jelly max.. abit only will break down like mad. i will always give in to her no matter i know is her fault i know sometimes i rage her blame her but still she is my one and only mum haizzzz!! 21 le i know what is right what is wrong i am lost sometimes still lucky i have jr to always help me up tell me teach me guide me very happy to have him as a bro! really treat him like my own blood bro no doubts! so recently he show me the pix of his backk after he go for the acupuncture cos he work then accidenally sprint his back! the momment i saw the pix i was omg my heart sank like i feel sad cos arr is so pain la and also this shows that he meant smth alot to me thats why i will react like this!! hopefully he will recover soon asap :)

so yea now holidays was working in starhub so i met this colleague girl name desiree she was so helpfull and friendly towards me but i was stupid i did something wrong FML i go tweet that she and her friend was b1tching other girls on my twitter.. den on the 3rd day of work she added me twitter and i totally forget that i got tweet about them.. so on the 4th day of work she approach me and say she is a very straight foward person and she straight ask me so i saw ur tweet that u were saying we are XMM and we were b1tching about another girl? i was like OMG WTF GGGGGGGGGG to meeeeeeeee so i tried to explain that i was really saying tat u are XMM is jus that i am older so to me i see u as a mei mei but not saying tat u are XMM and i apologise to her.. so she nxt momment reply me dont need explain and say sorry she will feel awakard! and lets drop the matter! i was like... and i can feel that she was kind of unhappy tat i tweeted that but i am really sorry i keep saying sorry to her and she was like its okay nvm.. but in my heart i feel is totally not okay lor zzzzz den from that momment onwards i know she will treat me differently le like build up her wall against me to protect herself.. arrw FML man she is short short kind of cute and got the vein look! but i kind of like her la but now i can dream of even like her cos i am out of her friend list i guess.. so is not surprise to see her deleting me from fb and unfollow me on twitter after my work ends on this month septemeber.. i jus wan to really let her know that i dont mean it really but i jus duno how to start or am i even given a chance to say it to her i duno man... guess i jus lost a friend for nothing or maybe not who knows.. maybe she will close a eye and forgive me but i dont think so ba. but still is really a small thing but in her eyes i bet is a freaking huge shit.. oh well i can suck thumb and jus move on ba..

so i told kkj abt this matter she says that i am a normal guy meaning i wont go notice all this thing... but i really never had a thought that this will happen ma! she go see my old tweets and happen to let her see tio and end up i am fcuked! zzzz so baddddddddd la i knowwww...so i been recently keep thinking dammit why so suay de let her see tio the tweet.. suay max.. but this girl desiree is really naise la all i can say and sociable..

Nvm la this world so many womans no scared cant find my true love..and i know how to piroity my friens who is first cos from wat i see it for myself i know who are really there for me and who are not.. so even u are 9yrs good buddy with this friend and another friend is jus 1yrs+ going 2yrs eventually the 2ys friend will be there for u first.. so ya like this lor.. this is life! ok shall end here! :)

Arrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!

i jus wan to rageee all i wan in in my blog and say out how i feel! :((( wo hen tong ku ar! wei semo ni men jiang dui wo!!! ok i need cool down before i blog it out... 10mins ago jus when smoking ok now i going blog wat happen! so it goes like this i got this clique they are my sec mate so we this month keep meet up for supper and lepak. so 1 day this 2 bitches namely charlene and huimin 1 jus ended work and we go fetch her she rage at me for not bringing her to 2chef as i promised when her bdae come i will bring her but she jus bo tai bo ji rage at me cos we jus finish having dinner at 2chef den went to fetch her so guess she was angry abt it ok so nvm wor.. i very cool person i let her rage in the car all she wan so i keep quiet ok so nvm after that go eat dessert and send the rest home. nxt the other sec mate jus ended watching movie with her bf is around 1+ going 2  le and left only me and jo tgt at changi village relaxing talking drinking teh and she called and ask me got anything to eat at our area bo so ok i say frien fries so she say ok and i bought for her cos she say till if dont buy she bo sua with me i am like wtf did i do again this b1tch huimin is forever raggy girl so nvm bought for her le. so as jo send me back first he drive to amk and send her the fries. not even a thankyou knn to either me or jo nvm wor. i very pissed off cos got taken for granted where got people buy u food no say thank you so very demanding meh jus a thank you only wor....

So nxt day i told jo i super angry lets meet for dinner with me and alice jus nice alice came over at my house to take her things and she jus nice wan dinner so we 3 went tgt eating half way huimin and the other girl amanda called us and ask wan meet bo they at sengkang only.. so jo say later den we talk abt it.. so call ended. so after dinner send alice home while me and jo go have ice-cream at east coast which is ard 11+ le so we saw at twitter this huimin post something like  要就讲要，不要就讲不要。 婆婆嘛嘛，做 girl 算了。  看不起这种男人 Next time dont bother calling us out, disgusting freak. _|_  Major turn off. Yucks  Think we kiam eng meh? Fuck off pls. so jo reaction was so big that he got so fking scared and blame me for everything cos is i dont wan go meet them and end up make him so hard to quo ren until he no choice but not to meet them.. so he was saying to me wtf not my business sia now become he got scolded so otw home we quarrel all the way in the car. nxt day he go confront them and tell them is not his fault and all and tell them i am unhappy abt them for ragy at me for no reason and buying fries for her and not even saying a ty..

so my reaction was WTF GG dont expect me to go out with u all le there is a price to pay for saying it out to them i told jo in whatsapp.. so now win le lor all cb me seriously if u fking think u sibei boss thinking by posting " Think we Kiam Eng Meh" dare u say it infront of my face or tweet it tgt with my name dont indirectly tweet..shooting me i see le hen bu shuang.. so u thinking i fking old u de la dont meet u all rage simi lj is this so now the girl who rage at me for nothing nxt day whatsapp me sorry she didnt mean it while this hui min not even a sry or wat thinking waa she sibei kiang ahlian talk loud think i scared meh pls la nb dont make me go back to my old self i make sure she cry infront of me knn.. so u think i kiam eng u de la for not meeting u all together for dinner? pcb major super kan pua dulan!

so wat i trying to say is where got so bitchy b1tch de eh u all dont think i duno u all using joseph for his car only la hor fetch here fetch there.. this joseph also no brain 1 side telling me wa cb his petrol drain until like mad and the other side blaming me for everything jus because she tweeted all those fking xl gl words. so wat do we call this holes before bros? haiz i duno wat to say le laaaaa i damnnnn angryyyyyyyyy fking angryyyyy wan rageeeee punch the girl face without regrets also can la!!! where is mr joseph balls why people only tweet like this his reaction so biggg and end up screwing it up now i get outcast. wtf is this! ok nvm i need cool down really can go sot.. this post too much vuglarties le.

so this incident happen on monday now is friday i been alone at home revising my upcoming exams only jr knows what i been going thru the hard times really if i wan focus well on my exam i cant have anything in my mind distract me i will sure buang badly or wont do well i know myself de :( i wan cry le la jus wan break down why so many shitss happen to me recently wo quai yao feng le!!! ARRRRRR fk all this ok bye....

Haizzz..

Back to my blog cos i have things in my mind running which i duno to be sad or angry.. so here it goes this classmate of my is angry at me u know why cos i suan him poke him like mad if u cant afford to play then dont start la he can say something like "Punggol people no up de la" and when teacher going thru those important qns for exam den end of class i go ask teacher abt some parts of the qns i duno how to do. As i walk back to my seat he shoot me so easy do no need ask de la in a scarastic manner. Tmd doesnt mean u know how to do u can talk in such way b1tch u are jus like one of the classmate the girl who is so proud yea u get A big fcuk arh. u dont wan to be humble nvm wor dont ceebai taunt me with such words and looks. Cos when i start dont blame me nb i can be even more scarstic and words can be damn hurting when come out from my mouth. Cant afford to play then dont start really 1 word weakling. Huh that time i ask u how to do this qns u reply me wat oh i am busy, sry i outside, i having dinner, yea eh fcuk u wan to help u will call me back dont come giv me alibaba excuese nb got 1 time doesnt mean i will be understanding to know oh he is busy so therefore he cant help me.. yaya i not so dumb to beileve it dont wan help jus say i can find others nnb. Dont wear a mask infront of me really.. i get sick of it. This wat i am facing in sch those fcuk up people.. Yea u can tweet  smth like" i kept quiet doesnt mean nothing happen. i am trying to be patience and I'm controlling. so now should i reply to ur tweet jus bring it? wan i can do it de wor bloody hell.. but i decided not to i go sch to study work hard not to disapoint my love ones not to find trouble but if i have no choice i will do it. that is if i got no choice but to do it. Lucky class still got majority nice guys and 2 nice ladies too.

Ok enough of ranting feel better after i wrote it out on my blog. Damn sian to face that 2 classmates who is so proud haiz.. its ok come to think of it i still got my loves ones who are my true friends.. so why bother abt ppl who are so fcuk up :)

Jus finish bathing going to do my work now le and do abit revise so fast 7+ le.. and pls A dont find me when u need me to help u with smth... i feel like shit when u have a bf yet always finding me appear infront of my door step for watt ur bf useless de ar got problem he cant handle for u? must need me meh and when u are done with me helping u disappear for 2-3 weeks den suddenly bomb appear infront of me again or sending me random text got miss u? wat i doing faster reach home stop drinking wat call u when i hit home? u are making me damn confused... i am spare tyre? haizz being too nice to u le.. and yet end up hurting myself :( duno how to describe this feeling haiz nvm i going to do my work now and stop thinking abt all this shits le..

Life's up n down..

So what i been doing this few weeks as usual same everyday school in morning hit home 6+ 7+ den bathe eat and do my work. Got back my maths result got a C means 60+ range all along i been failing all my class test so teacher was shock that i got a C for maths x.x but i am happy tat i pass hah its tough man will work harder to score a B or A. Told my dad abt the results he is happy he said well done work harder for my coming major exam. which is 1month from now. Gona try hard for my coming 3 big exams..

Now to me playing games is jus to relax n i am contented when i got my first win already. Not like last time i rage like a -.- when i lose games or try hard to win a game in ranked games... lucky that i still have my skills haha!

Started working last weekends le this weekend will still be the same at vivo city working. i dont feel is bored or shagg when i working duno why maybe very long nvr work ever since last yr F1 till now.. Of cos now i need to plan for my time management for my revision and working. Can see my some of my classmates working and studying at the same time still can score so good results.. Must learn from them le.

Miss the times when i am young 16-19 to not need to worry abt anything everyday at home playing games slack go sch as normal no stress etc as i aged need to start worrying abt all these.. my future wat i wan to be wat i wan to do etc.. haizz

So this is for someone incase thinking that yea i am so free to play games chat etc yea u are totally so wrong i am busy as always jus finding time to blog and do the things i wan to do..

Jus today done with my presentation for projects.. nxt week 2 more to go and thats all i hope no more projects man.. damit didnt know poly so many projects wtfux.. need cope with studies need do projects wth think we so free arrrr but nvm i can do it de all i need is time management!!.

Some people really think she so smart yea fcuk u jus because u got all A's doesnt mean u can be proud abt it. ceebai sometimes jus wan kan u lor so proud for fcuk! 17 nia 1995 de.. Wonther if she ever feels how people look at  her when she giv all the bossy b1tch attitude in class. Jus makes me think of something only after my poly u can fk off from my life :) Glad that i got all the naise guys in my class! so far ok can get along with them..

k gona end here le.. will update when i have time or have sorrows to type out ! or when i feeling down heh!  

i am back bloging ^_^

So yea came here to type abt how's my life now i guess is doing good 2nd half semester jus started first week have pass back to nom on studies projects all 1 whole sum of projects waiting for me to do damn sian larhx nvr ending de the projects.. 1 down nxt momment new 1 coming up damn retarded de i also duno why ask us do this project also in future wont use it on work somemore -.- damn.. ok so yea nvr drink for 2 weeks le and counting hah jus doing normal lifes at home relax watch movie online sometimes go out watch movie with friend drink teh relax dinner all.. will take up a job soon for sat and sun for some income for me.

Recently did some catch up with DH hah so he told me that he saw the bloody "big bad fox" in nex mall same theatre and movie as him LOL! and he ask me guess is who lololo and my first guess was correct is tat muther fcuking Sinnnnny wat a b1tch will never forget how u backstab us nnb jus because of 1 girl for urself.. so Dh was telling me he was still wearing his baggy pants LOL ceebai and his face look like dog thats how DH describe him lololo.. laugh until my jaw drop. bloody ass study some UNI and his thinking is so cunning wicked sick and yet unforgiven. lucky got my jr ren ren to catch his fking tail so sadd arrw u gt CAUGHT red handed b1tch. i wan thx you in person 1 day i see u in rl for making the 4 of us more closer lololo. And letting me to see the world more clearly what kinds of people out there in the society. u are 1 scary muther fcuker! BACKSTAB huh thats the worst thing u can do la so stupidddddddd like a Sohai. study so clever also no use cos end of the day u are jus a ceebai in my eyes. In Dh eyes u are worst then a beast LOL u hurt him alot backstab him like siao i will never forget how my bro DH feels tat time nothing can describe it. U jus a Big Bad Fox if 1 day u can see this or got the chance to see this post nah this is for u _!_.

haha ok enough of saying tat big bad fox. so for me i am ageing as days goes by learning alot thru out my life walking step by step thru out this poly route. what i can say is nothing is impossible is weather u wan do it or not. i must tell myself to jiayouu i can do it nvr give up no matter how hard jus try my best to solve it :)

Time to change my life.

Yea exam over but jus only 3 days for me to enjoy and i am back to sch :< when drinking last night but i felt eh why i didnt really enjoy myself like last time isit due to 2 weeks didnt when there and suddenly after steping in again after 2 weeks my surrounding ard me changes i didnt enjoy my night yes things were the same there but i didnt enjoy why!! :(( yes and another reason why i didnt enjoy because tis 1 muther fcuker joseph he is so fcuking ass stubb0rn u think everyone like me ar so forgiven to u after u screw things up for me and yet jus within 1 night can settle it yes i may say ok still bros but yet inside i still need some space from u due to he say some muther fcuking words thats are so ceebai and thinking wow u are so smart " His Phrase goes like this yea i have a scholarships brain u do not have therefore he is smarter then me. JOKE OR NOT? He using his dad brains to use it on himself to hit on me after i went hard on him against yinru i guess he wanted to protect her oh well u are 1 muther fcuking dumb piece of shitx. there are more alot damn crazy de. nvm wor then recently he go call victor and ask abt me in the end let victor troll max. so ok after my exams which was ytd only night me and him outside enjoying celeberate my exams over time to party drinking all he come send me msg " can i join u guys" HE KNOWS VICTOR would tell me oh no pls he come i leave thats what vic told me and end up he jus die die wan's a answer from it why he cannot join us why isit by calling victor that make him so hate him. duhh of cos la not everyone like me can close 1 eye leh once ppl dislike u pls dont try so hard to still wan to come along and u wont feel buay paiseh or left out? why u cant think of all this and yet still insist u wan a answer for it. so this b1tch went to msg vic after i didnt reply him and he created alot problem for vic we was outside drinking happily enjoying ourself he keep msg msg till spoilt our night FCUK RITE! self-ish think for himself only such a idiot dumbass weakling to girls easily apologise when he did smth wrong. EH ur apologise i hear until bored already pls pls instead of apologising i willing wish u can change i do not need ur apology omfg pls leave me alone i beg u 2months + pass le u been emoning in ur own fking world and pulling me along with ur problems tat i have to solve for u which is UNSOVLABLE!! why cant u listen!!

It jus like yea he screw up this friendship with my sec classmate girl and he wants everything back to be the same which is cannot and it will never happen!! he jus wan things solve by his ways and everyone to bend down on knees to go in his way. u already bang the fcuking wall how many times and u wan things to be the same are u fking kidding me. Is jus like yea i fcuk ur gf behind u and i apologise and i wan everything to be back to normal u think it can be happen? NO OF COS! goddamit u are my 8yrs bro this year u really make too much mistakes till is crazy madness u are haunting a girl till she is scared worst den stalking nb..haiz so i was so piss off i send him a long msg i told him to leave me alone we need some space btw each other dont look for me or call me ur problems u settle urself dont even come to my house door step to settle it cos i will ask my bro to send him off without fail. u really make me piss off ttm worst spoilt our night due to ur own self-ishness FF UU understand! Continue to bang more walls ba i cant be bothered le jiang le bu ting le bu zhuo.. hopeless le.. gt money got car also no use money cant buy u happiness..


Ok back to me i didnt enjoy myself last night maybe i feel bored le after 2months + been drinking at the same thai pub guess will be finding back my old ways of enjoyment stay at home relax play game when i free or friends ask to meet for movie or steamboat den i go out or maybe for shopping. other then that guess i wont go le really is bored le is not enjoyment also i duno how to phrase it also.. oh well will continue to work hard for my poly life.. and is time to meet my hao buddy jr and kkj sis sibei long nvr see that 2 idiot le LOL and he telling me he grow some white hair already LOL laugh until my jaw nearly drop x.x i know very bad hahahx. k ending here le will update my blog when i have time heh. 

Long Route...

Hi i am back on my blog really neglected alot of things ever since poly started my games lol friends blog alot la had been studying like a idiot like no life because i dont have the basic foundation for all this modules that i am taking therefore i need work extra hard research solutions on how to do and solve all this equations. Poly ppl is soo fcukkeddd uppp they are so self-ish i hate them alot when i need ask qns at home when i pm or sms them they will keep telling me i am not free sorry cant help u i am busy going cycling or wat i eating dinner later get back to u! U KNOW WAT all fail to help me say get back to me also never haizzz fkkk la why cant u all jus help one another why so 2 face when u facing me in sch and at home is totally different person i am facing.. In sch they seems helpfull when at home dafark all self-centred b1tches care for themself only sibei dulan maximum.. 2 more days to my exam 1 week taking 3 main module exams which consist of 30% which is alot la.. i been trying too hard last 4 days 5am sleep working on my revision really sibei stressss laaaa fcukkkk. Tried to play a few games to cool myself down after later back to work again.. i often get headache now haizzz.. i nvr try so hard in my life for studies man when i am way back in ite so relax can slack and play and pass.. Now leh play also cant slack also cant fff man NYP really very jing zhen when comes to study. i can hear what my classmates i wan aim DIRECTOR award?? i was like WTFUX u serious that make me so crazy didnt know my class A2 is so hardc0re type.. i can see other class talking about dota games bllackshot but my class none talk abt games or even girls -.- wonthering cb are they gays... super rabak ttm!

This 2months really been thru all this can i really still hold on with my studies.. total 3yrs and now 2months+ only i am like that already i skip going thai pubs drinking etc jus for this exam.. and i should stop drinking le been going to thai pub everyweek without fail.. should get back to my old-self when free jus go play LoL instead of going out with frien to go thai pub drink -.- hang flower alone only bill came out to $250 fk man didnt know i spent so much haizz for the 1month havent count the drinking bottles.. damn siao i know but ya enjoyment also for awhile only i should really stopppppppp!! plus i never work already spending so much holy fcuk.. yes dad knows i go there he didnt stop me for some reason i duno why but can see he doesnt like it oh well..

And to my bro joseph fking pass 2months keep telling me same girl this problem tat problem i wan go siao already lor keep holding his hand to walk guide him how to handle the girl sometimes feel like kan him hopefully mr darling jr can giv him 1 rabak 1 soon bloody hell i got my things to handle study etc and u another side asking me for solutions How what should i do, did i did anything wrong, wat i do to make her like this, why she change so much,why are we not close like last time, fff uuu of cos girl will change la once u like someone which is a girl and is a close friends sure things changes what plus u did multiple mistakes over and over again and this mistakes is all those super rabak 1 even dh also cant win u urs is worst then him ttm! let ppl hear already cfm laugh and cry and even think wtfux damn real. And u are glad i didnt even blame u a single shitx cos after all this happen i and those classmates girls became not so close thx to u cos they know i and u are good buddy's so of cos they wont ask me out already la cos they know if i go u also will follow duhh.. but nvm i dont really care le tey are not important in my life's also.. keep a few important ones will do u know who u are

Gona end here le 5.30am now tml wake up study again.

Indescribable

Sometimes trying too hard in what ever things u do will make u insane lost and suddenly when u wan to do it ur mind suddenly goes blank haizz.. i know myself i been trying hard in my studies now which make me feels so different now at times when someone like example mum ask me eat dinner i will talk loudly towards her it is because i feeel soo... which i duno how to describe my mind is keep running why this why that how to solve who can help me etc i been trying to work my way out to handle my studies wo hao leh le :( stop gaming i have did it le while else on the weekends been drinking almost every week which i think can destress me looks like i am wrong le :( is jus like yea u are happy for a momment like 3-4hours in the pub drinking etc and suddenly the next day u wake up is back to normal life and whats more hangover due to over drink of alochol. haizz what should i do noww.. at times now i stone for secs asking myself am i ok am i over clocking my body and mind am i able to cope all this if i fall now who will be there for me.. been telling myself i cant fall i need to stay strong  till everything ends. sometimes at night 1+ i go down alone to grab a Teh to drink and chill why all my close buddies stay so far from me :( sometimes jr my parents ask me am i ok ma for my studies i reply yes actually but the truth is i duno whats the ans.. and i feel very lost sometimes but till i am gona tell myself i can do it!  Gona end here le i feel my head is very heavy now after writing all this gona rest on bed and grab a coffee in the morning to keep myself awake later..





 

Poly Life!

Ever since i started poly omfg really need neglect my games my lol friends buddy all and focus on my fcuking poly work the A maths is really no kidding freaking hard to do everyweek i have homework to do mon-fri freaking 9-6 or 8-5 at sch timetable shag max reach home 7+8 bathe finish all dinner 9+ do my work 10+ 11 and need sleep nxt day same thing...In Poly time is precious late 1 min teacher scold u give u warning nb bloody hell really hate the morning wed 8am lesson teacher freaking @sshole his gona send me my first letter without fail if i late tml.. damn fierce strict guy and do maths he love to skip steps and write answer  straight bloody hate him la... but tat doesnt mean i gona hate maths i am a maths lover is jus tat tis freaking A maths all is total new thing to me need ppl who can help me and guide me with my maths.. those who put in effort willing to teach me i will really put in my heart to learn it and remeber it in my brain but bear with me i need to keep repeat tis why why and u need to explain to me 3-4 times to me den i will really oh ok understand le. A slow learner :( but i am willing to try hard for this fcuking maths!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Got karmen jie jie to help me along on phone with her to do maths for jus 3qns we took 2hour+ damn siao rite LOL very glad and happy she willing to help me xoxo and patiencely explain to me again and again why tis why is like tat how to do it how to sub in this and that.. lucky she didnt scold me phew and keep repeating help me hope she dont go mad at me x.x Nah karmen jie jie if u gt read my blog typing tis to uuu! thxxxxxx alottt appreaciate alottt too!!

All i wan to say is very stress shag in poly not like ite so relax and i can score! everything is differenttt! gona work hard for it! thx those who keep encouraging me i can do it have faith on me like ex. jr darling, victor!, karmen jie jie, xoxo u all!

Life been pretty ok jus everyday not enough sleep thats all and feel freaking tired the momment i hit home! need get use to this kind of lifestyle no choice. Jr also everyday work come back also freaking tired now i can feeel himmm plus he drive too even tired!! the feeling iss sooooo arrw whole person shaggg!! max.