Basically wad i do is today ring dabby k promise her bring her out so k brought her out today bring her go eat later johnny tag along at 5+ so we went kakaboo to play seeing u happy enjoying urself i am happy too u make me smile. ok so after playing at kakaboo headed over to PS for dinner as we was eating halfway she say tis sentence fking randomly i swear " Dickson do u still like me?" ok i heard le i was blur shock i duno wad to reply so i jus quickly change topic i wanted to dodqe tat qns immediately i very stun at the momment and awkward so yea manage to did it. cos is so freaking wtf when u suddenly say it out like randomly without thinking Johnny is with us he is not invisible de. ok nvm so she suggested to go johnnny places to stay over night and play with his dogs so ok at first i thinking i all along afraid of dogs and cats going his house i would be terror ttm plus he gt husky so huge tat i can never imagine and i dont dare to but jus for D and to accompany her i agree to it and went to johnny house with her.
ok so halfway while reaching his house i msg roy ur gf and me going johnny house now stay over night the reason why i did it because jus ytd ago he came to confront me in my face to talk about the matter btw her and himself telling me all along i am retarded to listen to her and without knowing the story of it ok i ask him so now because of u 2 going break off u wan blame me? This was the impression i have on him tat he wanted to blame everything on me but i am wrong so wrong till i gt no words to say because after he told me so much tat i didnt know abt which D didnt tell me before abt him always jus telling me her side story and his story of a good side nvr once she told me k so i was blindly 1 sided all along so i told myself ok fk all this i am gona be netural plus my dad knows all his relative and his family everything i dont wan because of this i make and enemy ok so nvm i apologise to him i respect him for who is he is everything u told me u could giv to D i guess i cant do it or should i say i can but not as much power u have tat u can scarfice for her and with ur mum siding u all along which ever u wan she jus give and ur strong relatives u have to support u all the way in wadever troubles u have first 1 i always see is ur relatives comments to cheer u up. ur ego ur pride u can scarfice for her win already u jus over take me by 1 level ahead of me.
ok so i was saying i msg roy but i didnt know roy went to msg her str9 and is like u freaking sabo me but nvm so she ask me while walking to johnny house why u tell roy all this i am like da fark hey u are his gf why u need to scared of ur whereabouts u go where all doesnt he should know and i can feel u are damn scared to let him know where are u and all so she ask me wad i really msg to roy from here on i already dont like the idea u asking me tis and that is like u questioning me i jus dont like the idea so ya and i jus rafly tell her this and then and i jus put on my earpiece and blast the music and walk infront of them and to be honest actually from the start already dont feel confortable with u i jus choose to ignore it but after the kakaboo i told myself i did my part to make u smile so while walking to PS i already took out my earpiece and listen all the way while we were walking to PS and i leave johnny to handle u. Same thing i did also went was going to johnny house i guess my actions are too obvious le my tail is easily catch JR Darling says it correctly i am easily tio catch de my actions i do everything is damn obvious is because why u know i dont like to alibaba play stun i do things str9 foward jus same like i wan confront u i gt qns to ask u or tell u i will go right str8 for u without fail i wont keep it to myself tats me... i prefer things to be settle it immediately.
k so i guess my tail gt catch by u cos u said tis to me in the lift while going up to johnny place dickson pls dont ignore me and talk to me i am like ok i guess u spoted me le so ok i shall face it and tell myself ok i shall face it and talk to u den be normal again.. so ya went to johnny house saw the husky saw the female and male dog i gt freak out my whole person shiver like i eaten drugs the momment they came str8 for me i was so terrify u will nvr know wat the feeling is jus sooo like machamp i saw a ghost really tats how bad it is. ok so johnny say smth like joking la i know touch my dog fur or u are a pussy can go become a girl so i jus entertain u all ya ok fk i am a pussy i go become a girl now.. so nvm i take it as johnny is joking so i am fine with it. so johnny big sister jio for supper go mac eat so ok we tag along so as we was eating and chating johnny big sister is so friendly and HOT sociable and is she 29 damn looks good can communciate so well with me and she say why i so shy cos i am jus like tis whenever i meet a new friend and is a girl i am very shy de i duno why haha and she can see from my impression when ever i am replying her i will look down.. and reply her overall had fun chating with her big sister awesome! and when i look at D face expression u know wats the next think up in my mind she dont like the feeling of this u know why because she is attention seeker and all along i been chating with the big sister and johnny while D sat there quietly not talking and giving some sort of wierd impression to the big sister why i can say tis is because when ever i look into the big sister eyes while she is talking i can see her eyes are looking at D sometimes for wat reason i duno but i can feel that she knows D doesnt like the feeling of it because our attention all was focus on the big sister i can 100% bet on this without doubts the big sisters knows it she is some freaking smart @ss girl tat study duno wad thing now i forget wad it is smth like doctoary etc.. damn high education de tats all i know. ok so she teach me how to cure this phobia not totally really works but she told me to feed the husky the big bone and i manage to do it with my self confidence and thx to her giving me support i can do it and i did it the first time in my life i get so close to a husky after all along i am so fear of them come to think of it they wont bite me so i shouldnt mind but the problem is i mind.. but nvm pass this stage not bad le..
ok so ard 4 we go up to johnny balcony so he brought the female dog along ok so while i was taking my cigg to smoke D jus keep giving me attitude dont like me smoke all along from the time i meet her till now whenever i take out my cigg she will kp me rant at me scold me beat me threaten me crush my cigg throw my cigg away etc plus the dog came near to me so as u know i am jus too terrify of dogs haiz so i stand on the chair at johnny balacony D shot me again u pussy la can really go be a girl in a angry tone i am like ok real tats when i started to get abit angri ok so nvm. johnny can see my expression le he told me cool down so ok i dont wan make bad impression to him like first time go his house i giv attitude all bad impression so i didnt show anything i keep quiet continue smoking. so ard 5+ all keep quiet nothing to do so i shot tis qns to johnny and before i shot tat qns to him i told D already i dont mean anything to u so ok i say this to johnny " If u are my girlfriend i am the boyfriend i say i going my friend is a girl house to stay randomly wat is ur answer frankly speaking u can giv me" so D immediately response " Oh so u are siding roy now isit" i told her to stfu and ask johnny answer so johnny response is he wont like the idea of going ppl house stay cos why u are my BF would u like the idea of me going a girl friend house to stay will u mind obvious answer is a YES without doubts duhh. ok so i said well said. so i saw D expression piss not happy with me le so i was smoking and she kp again say giv me the pack of ciggs and ok i gave it to her and she freaking go do it on purpose open the cigg box and let air go in as u know cigg air once go in u smoke = can throw away u feel nothing in it nvm wor i still very relax but tis is the momment tat is too real she take a metal piece and jus THROW AT ME! u know how pain it is or not U FKING KNOW OR NOT u hurt me alot. from there i told myself ok enuff of all this shitx Johnny saw tat he gave me the impression was ok very real he knows tis time i am super pissed. Firstly Discriminate me pussy i can go become a girl,2ndly u open my cigg box let air go in on purpose,3rdly u throw the metal thing on me with ur force and the impact on me was hard and i feel the pain from there onwards i wanted to tell u infront of johnny in ur face to make u xia suay i didnt i hold everything u know or not the feeling inside was way tooo undescriable..
i treat u so good all along u wan wat eat wat i ok go along with it price hw much i didnt really bother as long as u are happy i am ok with it but i jus couldnt take it u throw the piece of metal thing at me jus because u are pissed angry infront of johnny u know how sad i am or not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u will never know. i gave my best to u i trust u i gave u my blog i always try to make u happy i bring u go out i supported u alot all along when u only told me 1 sided story i though u was right royston is a bad guy i beileve i was blinded by tis thing call "love" all this i did is all jus for u to make u smile now wad i get is wad hurt FCUK u always say i am same as ur bf fk u are totally wrong i have my good and bad points he has his u can nvr put me and him tgt is 2 different thing u now or not sadly u duno i guess u know WHY from wat i see now u are Self-Centered selfish attention seeker ur ego and pride u hold it more high den i expected u only care abt urself only u nvr put urself in my shoe u NEVER i swear u NEVER!!!!! same for ur BF u never put urself in his shoes NEVER once u did it i am so freaking disapointed in ur actions and all tat u have done. Dabby Chan Yu Zhi i really regreted the first kiss i really zhen de it make me become to this state now and ur BF 2 times throw u alone to me i did my part to care for u and also to make u happy i really did my part u will know it best. i am offically sad ttm my heart so sorrow now i swear really way too hurting u did tat to me all i get is nothing hurt after doing so much nice things to u wad i get HURT FCUK i fall too deep le tis time gone case liao tis time really gone and i meant it i should have forgotten u in my mind i should jus disappear myself from u to forget abt u everything single thing tat i did i will remove and delete it from my brain and treat it as it didnt happen at all. i am typing tis and controling my emotions is really too hurting i swear i can break down now like mad jus because of u! Good luck to u in wadever u do and all ur r/s everything all the best. took me 2 hours+ to write all this up. D ur msg u send to me about ur apology is too late le really too late i am hurt way too deep again i fall into the fking blackhole already everything is gone.
And kkj sis i should have listen to u i deserve someone better way better tat will appreaciate me in all the things tat i did u told me before despite how bad her background is i still like her and now since i know everything le taken for granted le.
wo zhen de hen hou hui ren si ni :(
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